Save Me

Chapter 54

I listen to thousands of people shouting, laughing, chattering all around me as I stand still. Frozen.

Everyone keeps going, walking, talking, moving on with their lives as I stand still. Frozen.

Time keeps passing, seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks go by as I stand still. Frozen.

They develop, evolve, continue. Everything and anything. All except for me.

I'm unable to move on. I'm unable to block the pain, avoid the burns and nightmares that haunt me since the hell broke loose. Since my angel turned into a demon. I'm unable to forget and forgive. I'm unable to find my strength and move forward, move on with my life and chase my dreams because they are ruined by a demon. Ripped to threads and fell as glassy fragments, shattered pieces thrown in an empty floor.

"Amelia," Noah's soft voice brings me back. "You okay?"

"Yeah...sorry,"

We walk in order to meet Noah's friends. The mansion is crowded with people and I find difficulty passing between bodies and make my way towards the back. I try not to lose Noah cause I'm certain I won't be able to track him down later. We reach his friends and I sit right next to Noah.

"Where is Anna?" I ask when I don't find her around.

"She's running a bit behind. She'll come," I can't help but smile seeing him blush lightly and grin at the mention of the girl he's in love with. He deserves to be happy.

"Hey," Olivia greets me with a grin. Her curly brown hair hugs her head beautifully. She's wearing a blue top with a crème shirt that shows off her curves gracefully.

"Hi, how are you?"

"I'm great, how have you been holding up, you know with everything?" I frown at her words giving her the clue to continue. "Our high school might be huge but the people in it are too bored not to gossip around for everything."

"Oh, right. I'm okay," I reply with the shortest answer I could come up with. I don't want to discuss us with anyone especially with a girl that I don't know that well.

"I don't know that happened but he's so handsome. How could you let him go?" The whispers and chatters that traveled to my ears these past days flood into my mind. My self-system is totally ruined while I spent the last days listening to people laugh at me. Rumors say that he cheated on me, he got bored of me, I became too clingy or I was calling him at 3 am to check up on him. Some are cruel; I was new and wanted to become famous, I was using him to get the attention of everybody's stares given the fact that nobody knew me. Though the worst was that I was so miserable while was trying to fill in the blank that my parents left by using him as the substitute. I wanted attention and Corbyn as the playboy was my best option.

I look at her without offering an explanation. Nothing about that they say it's true. And I can't help but think that everybody that gets close to me after our break-up wants to learn and fuel the rumors surrounding my name. I'm just so tired of being used, consider as a user, liar when the truth is so far from that.

"Excuse me," I stand up leaving the place where all of them are sited. A hand grips mine halting me.

"Where are you going?" Our eyes meet and Noah's lips curve downwards when he witness my teary eyes that mirror sadness. "Is everything okay?"

"I just want to be alone," I mutter and walk towards the inside of the house. It was the stupidest idea come. I shouldn't have come. I thought I could socialize and recover, left the pain behind and focus on the future. Mrs. Jordan proposed it as well though it was the wrong choice.