Alone on the world

Chapter 3.6

TW!!!! Suicide, death, crying!!!!!

Y/n POV

The night is normal and I have some sleep. It's more then normal. I don't even know why, but I don't dream too. It's like the silence before the storm.

It's even weirder that I wake up and had enough sleep while it's still deep dark outside.

I shrug it off and walk downstairs, to see that no one is there. That's even weirder, someone has to be on shift right now. I need to make a choice between looking at the others or taking the shift for now.

After thinking for a while I choose checking up on the rest. I walk upstairs and decide to start with Techno.

The room is empty...

The bed isn't used and his weapons are hanging on the wall.

I sneeze because there is a bit of dust in the air.

I run to the next room, the one from Niki.

Empty too...

Same scene there, dusty, made bed and everything on the walls.

I search through every room and I find that every room is in the exact same condition. No one is there any more, not even the dogs are there.

I hang my cloak over my shoulders and fully load myself with weapons to go outside. This can't wait until it's light, so I slam the door open. It stops flying when it slams in the wall.

I breathe heavily when I see a path lighted leading in the woods. I follow it without hesitating, because it must be a hint what has happened.

The dark embraces me and I feel a half warm breeze on my cheeks.

*The tear that is on my cheek becomes cold, but I can't bring myself to wipe it away.

The last turn in the path reveals five grey stones. They're in a straight row and by every stone are flowers.

Are that, gra- graveston- gravestones?

I can't believe my eyes.

I run to a stone and see a name engraved in it. It spells Tubbo.

No, this can't be true!

I go with my hand over the stone, tears fill up my eyes and I need to hold them in to read the other gravestones.

Wilbur...

Bad...

Techno...

Niki...

How?

Why?

Why not me?

I scream and let all my emotions out.

The tears pour over my face and I hide it in my hands. My whole body is shaking under the constant pouring of tears over my face and hands.

The sun rises and warms my body, whom is drained from energy. Mentally and physically, even though I just woke up with enough energy.

I get my ugly crying under control and then see that there is written something else on every grave stone.

A poem, a little poem for every person who died.*

I recognise my handwriting and starts reading them, ending with Tubbo.

Techno:

*For you and your gods I will keep killing.

But without you it won't be that trilling.*

Wilbur:

I buried you with your guitar.

So your endless creativity will never be that far.

Niki:

*You've been so sweet to me, I don't know why.

I didn't deserve this, but why did you die?*

Bad:

Hey muffin, why did you leave me?

This luggage you left here, will never let me free.

Tubbo:

*Life is like a long dark river underground.

So dark you can't see.

Without a light, life would be very hard.

That light was you.

My life doesn't have a point anymore.

I'm just protecting everything I have left of you.

I soon want to join you.

High up in the ranks.*

Was that really me who wrote that? I didn't know that I could do that.

The last two rules speak to me.

I really should, if I'm being honest, they will never come back and I'm alone now.

I see some flowers and I go pluck them.

On every grave I place a flower, every grave gets a different flower, based off their personalities.

After I put them down I walk backwards the path up until I don't see them any more. I turn around and start running, just where my feet take me.

My quiver bounces on my back in rythm with my steps, it guides my fast breathing.

*My body soon shuts down and I fall down, blacking out.

This wasn't a normal one, I really should need help. If there were still people I would have been in the hospital for weeks, months maybe.

The pain overwhelms me, I can still stand and walk, but I can't think properly anymore.

I see a ravine and walk to it.

I stand with my back to the ravine and look in the street.

I whisper,

I will be there in a second, goodbye.

I turn around and I run into the ravine.*

Gosh, I really needed to write something like this, I just needed some plot again you know.

I'm very sorry

Please don't forget to eat, drink and take your medicines.

I love you,

Arwe