trouble

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billie
"what did i tell you?" i groaned while swinging my arm away. "fuck off, i don't want you near me"

"you said that the last time but you still-"

"you're so fucking annoying!" i cut kristina off. "leave me the fuck alone! all i want is my girlfriend right now. not your ugly ass"

kristina gasped dramatically and stormed away.

bitches are so annoying

i really wanna ditch class with jay but she's such a goody two shoes. she seems like a tough bad bitch, well she is, but she don't ditch anymore!

i'm taking her out tonight and i'm actually nervous for that. why? i don't fucking know. i don't take people out on dates or whatever... they're weird.

"hey baby" jayden came up to me and intertwined our fingers together.

i didn't bother to lock our fingers.

"you okay?" she asked me while letting go of my hand. "you seem upset"

"i'm not" i mumbled while grabbing her hand.

jayden looked at me funny and shook her head.

"you wanna know what my dad said?" she hummed out.

"what he say?"

"i'll let you find out when you come and pick me up" jayden said while wrapping her arms around me. "i'll see you later"

i gave her a quick kiss and left to class. this is the only period i don't have her in so... what a bummer i guess.

the other day an ex of mine started talking to me. let me tell you, she's an angel. i loved her okay?

do i still have feelings? nah not at all.

i've been talking to her for about a week now and jay doesn't know about her.

i know it's bad to keep this from her but we've been doing so good. i'm just scared she's gonna end up reading my messages somehow and then make a whole ass deal out of it.

are my messages bad?

well, you see.... me and lia, thats her name, kinda been flirting with each other..? i told her i was in a relationship but like... that's been happening.

i feel bad. i've been hiding my phone and just being really sus ever since lia and i started talking again. i'm pretty sure jayden noticed how weird i'm acting around my phone.

we haven't fought, aside from that little disagreement we had earlier this morning, but that's it. we're doing so good and i don't want her finding out about lia.

i love jayden, i really do. i realized that after the fifth time she tried to leave me. i didn't say it just because. i said it because i wanted her to know, if that makes sense.

she's a good girl, always with me, taking care of me, all that shit. there's more but that's why i love her.

"so what's the answer billie?" my teacher called me out, causing me to zone back in.

i just looked at him and shrugged while leaning back in my chair.

"pay attention and stop day dreaming" he told me sternly.

"if i cared about this shit i would be" i chuckled. "all this shit is useless, fuck this class"

he looked at me with his eyebrows raised up and a shocked expression while i walked out of class. i'm tired of school. it's so fucking boring! what's the point of learning half of the things we do in school and never use it in the real world?