trouble

24

jayden
"too good to be fucking true" i shook my head and threw my hoodie at my chair.

"well what happened?" sage asked me while looking at tate.

"she took me out right?" i started. "and then she had to go use the restroom and left her phone and you know how i am, i'm nosy as fuck so i read her messages after she got a text. guess who it fucking was"

"was it that girl she used to be with?" tatum sent me a sad look.

"no" i chuckled bitterly. "it's some other bitch and they apparently were together for a while"

"jayden..." sage frowned.

"we were doing so good!" i laughed. "so fucking good! she always has to ruin everything! nothing good last forever"

"what was she saying though?" tate asked.

"they were calling each other baby and shit" i scoffed while shaking my head. "flirting and saying they miss each other, like bro, we've been dating for almost two months and i find out she's cheating on a fucking date?"

"i should've know" i chuckled dryly. "i should've fucking known! bro, i came home and my dad asked me how it went and i just said it was good so he won't ask me shit and because i don't want him talking bad about her... i went to my room and cried though"

"jayden" sage wrapped her arms around me and stroked my head. "i'm so sorry"

"it's fine" i mumbled. "i should've listened to you guys"

"have you talked to her?" tate asked me.

"fuck no" i snorted. "she's been spamming the shit outta me though... i was thinking about blocking her"

"would it make you feel better?"

"no" i sighed. "it hurts you know? i was happy, she seemed happy and then i find out like that... i'm a fucking dumbass staying with her"

"just leave her then" tate shrugged.

"oh nah" i chuckled. "do you know how many times i've tried? five fucking times! ive tried five times! and she always makes me feel like shit whenever i want too. i've dealt with so much of her bullshit and i'm a fucking dumbass still being with her"

"you know you can just... leave her right?" tatum made a face. "like it's not that hard..."

i sent her a 'really' look.

"do you know how difficult it is to leave someone after trying so hard to fix them?" i tilted my head. "like you've tried to change them, and they did kinda. we have our good times but... i just can't leave her like that i worked so hard with her"

"billie ain't shit" sage grabbed my face and squished me.

"yup" tatum agreed with her. "all she's been doing is hurting you"

i just shrugged.

"jayden baby" sage said while leaning closer to my face, our foreheads and nose touching. "don't be so sad over a dumbass who doesn't know how good you are"

"yeah what sage said" tatum sat next to me and wrapped her arm around my shoulder. "i know that you're a person with good intentions and will do anything for someone. don't let billie walk all over you and treat you however she wants"

i sighed and pushed them away from me. "why can't billie see that i won't do anything? why does she have to be like this? i really thought she was like... actually for real with me"

tatum and sage both sent me sympathetic looks.

"i've tried to fix her" my voice cracked. "i cant just break up with someone who i love so much. i know it's been a short time, but goddamn billie has such a sweet side. i hate her ugly side. i hate this... i just wish she wasn't like this. i wish she would've listened to me. i made my promise to stop all the shit i was doing and i did!"