Not really an update just me asking for forgiveness.
I'm so sorry.
To all you guys out there who need someone strong and brave, and amazing and someone to love..... I'm sorry because i am not strong enough.
I'm just so sorry that i write all this crap and let you guys read it and sometmes, maybe encourage you to do things you dont want to, or even bring up your past when im suppose to help you, honestly i dont know if this does.
I am so stupid and pathetic and i hate...
You know wha guys...
I'm sorry.
I hope you'll all forgive me for doing this to you, not being there for you, destroyign your mind with my poisonous words. It doesnt help, at least i dont think it does.
I just dont know anymore!!!! And i'm tired! So tired!
Just. So tired!!
