If I could write it in fire,
I would tell you how many times I’ve hurt myself,
If I could write it in fire I
Would tell you of the hell I’ve been through
You don't know me and I don't you
Yet it matters of what I do
There is so much I’d tell you;
From the past all back to the future
I would have mentioned where it all began
The heartache and the distraught
The bitterness, the violent images of killing HER
It’s not that I don't want to,
It's only that I can't
Time is ticking and I would never take a chance.
I just wish I could write it in fire
For then you would understand
The hate
The pain
The struggles of my life.
NOT YOURS!!!
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But where I have been!
Where I started
Where I fell
Where I loved
Cared
Wished
And dreamed
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Where I was ME
I would tell the beautiful story.
But I have made mistakes
And I have cursed myself
Another war and yet another loss
I'm disappointed
I'm broken
I'm weak
I'm pathetic
An idiot dreaming for too long
I have lost
All the anger and hate
Now stress and heartache
So I hope you don't mind if I wrote it in sorrow.
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If I could tell you
I would,
But I can't,
Because I’m messed up
Vote, share and comment, tell me what you think, you guys know it's important to me (everything is). I'm going through the deepest darkest valleys right now and it's kinda hard to go through with all the thick trees, ditches, thorns and all but the sad part is that, my troubles have just begun.
(I wrote this yesterday, while the storms of emotions were raging through me)
