F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Chapter 35

I WAS quite nervous while we're on our way to Tae's home. Lyndon keeps on talking but I didn't hear anything that he is saying.

What will I say to Tae? I know that it will take time to accept me again to his life but I will do anything for him. I chuckled lowly, I can feel Lyndon's stares at me.

I cleared my throat. "It's funny how we do almost everything for our loved ones right?" I find it amazing and crazy. You know, doing things that you don't usually do just so you can show to that person how you truly felt

"Yeah. It's funny how I drive the person I love to the guy that she loves." I was caught off guard by what he said. I turn to him and waited for a punchline hoping that he is just joking.

"Don't mind me Jennie. You know what?...Taehyung deserves to be happy. He waited for years just to have you." What shall I say? I mean I didn't know that he really has a feelings for me? I put my gaze to the road, to avoid any eye contact with him.

"Remember the time he confessed to you? I was there." He chuckled, recalling that exact moment. "I saw how hurt he was when you rejected him. And I saw into your eyes how you regretted that moment."

"When your father let me meet you back then, I know from that moment that you already have feelings for him. That's why you pursued your dream as an artist. Not because to just simply perform. But because you're hoping that you can meet him again." I was shocked to what he said. Am I that obvious? I didn't told my members that reason because I know they will just tease me or they'll be disgusted to me.

When I saw Taehyung getting debuted, I strived harder. I overdo things just to be debuted.

"And how can I be so stupid to hinder you from your happiness?" His voice became lower like a whisper. When our gazes met, I saw how his eyes sparkle. And at that I know he's at the verge of crying.

"Taehyung wants me to give you this. After he send you to your house after you slapped me, he met me again that day. And he gave me this. At first I was selfish and so determined to not give it to you.

"But when I saw how you take care of yourself without him, I started feeling guilty." I got the paper out from his hold.

When I open it, tears began to flow from my eyes, the first thing I saw there was a picture of us before. The Taehyung whose fat. Who has a round glasses on his eyes. His box smile is showing and his eyes became a thin line from smiling so big.

I was beside him, posing v-sign. I look so thin beside him. And I cannot believe how happy I am in this picture.

"Jennie, I'll be an artist soon. Would you believe that?" I laughed at what he said. That would be very impossible!

"Don't be so ridiculous Tae. You need to lose weight before you'll qualified as an artist." I shook my head and got my bag from my chair then I start walking from my classroom.

"Okay let's say, if I'll be an artist I'll make sure that you will be on my special fan." I laugh again by his cute remark. I faced him all of a sudden causing him to stop from walking. We stood so near at one another. I can see how his Adam's apple move. His eyes became nervous as hell and his forehead is sweating.

"W-why are you so c-close?" He stuttered. I move one step backward and look at him again. I find it amusing how he is so nervous in front of me and look at him straight in the eyes.

At first he look at my eyes too, but he was getting awkward so he just look up then down the to the sides.

I smile again with his cute actions and ran to him and do a headlock.

"Aw! Release me Jennie!" I didn't do what he said instead I began walking. His head encircled to my arms.

We headed to the soccer field, and I release him. I put my bag on the field and called some of our schoolmate to help got a picture.

"What are you doing?" He asked.

"Well if you'll be an artist soon, I should be the first one to have a picture with you." I said to him, I tried to fix his hair. His has hair locks is covering his chubby face. He cleared his throat, he fixed his glasses and even wipe his clean shirt.

I gave my digital camera to our schoolmate and we pose.

I gave him the three pictures. "Keep this mister. And remember that I was your first lucky fan." His gaze was fix to the pictures. He can't look away to it.

I smiled seeing him so focus with just a picture. Even though he's fat he's still the most handsome chubby guy I've ever seen. It's not really impossible for him to be an artist, because he can be an artist. Soon. I realized that I was staring at him for so long so I got my bag on the field and my camera then I began walking away from him.

I heard him called my name and when he was so near to me, I began running.

"HE is a great guy Jennie." My trance of thought was cut off when Lyndon speak again. "Read the letter Jennie."

I slowly open the letter inside.

The very first letter that I will write is to the very special lucky fan of mine...

Thank you for the friendship Jennie. I will always look back to those days we have spent together. I will remember those pictures we took in the field. The first time you said no to me but you still manage to come back. The time I first saw you perform and made me so proud. The time I said I like you. The time I did the 5 senses. The time I fight for you. The time we spend in your dorm. And the time you choose me.

I'm sorry to disappoint you. I just wanna make you proud, but what I did was a huge mistake.

Jennie, I know how this letter feel so disgusting. And I tend to still write this for you. Meeting you feels like a fairytale. Having you with me is like a dream come true. You're the only treasure that I have. The only woman I dreamed about.

A fairytale that needs a prince. A dream, I need to wake up. A treasure that I need to give back. The woman that I need to return and I should do things by my own. Do things without you.

I know I've said that I will fight for you. That I will never give you up. But what can I do if the person I'll be dealing with is your  family. I am willing to stop, to give up. You know how I respect your family so much.

I'll rest for now. But I will be waiting.

Always.

Your best friend,
Kim Taehyung

AFTER reading his letter, it gave me a lot of emotions. A lot of strange feelings. But what overflows right now is the feeling to keep him. The feeling of owning him and fight for him this time.

"Are you ready to see him?" Lyndon asked.

I didn't realized that we already arrive.

I saw him standing on the riverbank, his dog waggling his tail looking up to him. The sun is setting. His calm state makes me calm as well. The peaceful of this place suits his calm self.

"I don't think I should be here."

"You should be. The place cannot fulfill his emptiness inside." Lyndon said as he lower down the window, still inside his car. After saying that, he blow the horn of his car and started driving away. I know that Tae heard the horn from Lyndon's car!

I was literally shock with the sudden sound and was shock-er to hear his voice again.

"Jennie?" I miss his voice so damn much.