the model

am I making a mistake?

To his stomach, gulf took a deep breathe to then slowly open his eyes, looking to his hand that laid right near his face, he then looked to the wall, to slowly go to his back, turning his head, he looked to the side to see mews back, he watched has his breathes went in deep.
Gulf took a deep breathe has well to then get slowly up, he moved off to go to the edge, to keep his head turned watching mew, he didn't seem to wake.
Getting up, he then bend over to grab at his clothes to then down them on, he turned to look at mew, to then wrap his arms about.
Looking to the side, he saw the time, it was 3am in the morning, he signed.
I know I'm suppose to stay but.... But....
Gulf turned to then quietly leave, he needed time to process this.
Going to his car, he sat within, to take a deep breathe, he then started his car to go forth.
At home, he then went in, to take all his clothes off, except his boxers to go to his bed to crawl into to then place his arms under his head to look to the ceiling, in deep thought.
So..... I'm going to give.... Him a real chance? Should I? What about what happened with....
Gulf signed to then turn to his side with his arm under his head to look to the wall.
I can tell that mew is different then my ex, mew is sweeter, kinder, more affectionate and patient, but what if he is just trying to get something out of me?
Just like to....
Gulf signed.
Your the one who started it, he was trying to not have that happen, I'm so used to having sex that would help my problems but doesn't seem like it is going to be the solution this time.
So maybe, he really does want us too....
Gulf then sat up to place his hands behind him, to look to his bed.
But, what do I want? Do I want to go out with him? I know I am feeling something for him, can feel it in my broken heart but, but..... What will come out of this? What will end up happening if I give him a real chance and people at work catch on were dating?
I highly doubt that, just because my ex and I kind of flaunted it and everyone seemed to think we were just getting close since we worked together, so I don't think this is going to be a problem like I think it is going to be.
Flopping down, he spread his arms to either side to look back to the ceiling, his eyes darted, his mind was swirling at the what if's and what could possibly happen.
Turning his head, he went to his side to then reached for his side table to grab his phone that started to go off, he was a bit confused to who it could be.
"Hello?"
"Where are you?"
Gulf made a face, to then bring his hand to his forehead.
Of course it's him.
"Um..... I'm at home."
He heard a heavy sign at the other end of the receiver.
"Gulf, you were suppose to stay, was going to make you breakfest, well, guess I can do that at your place, even though it's a bit smaller."
"Mr. Suptra...."
"Mew."
Gulf rolled his eyes.
"Listen, it's 3 ish in the morning, we have to get up soon to go to work, just go back to sleep and..."
Sitting up, he clutched his phone to look across the way to his door, he heard light knocking.
Who can that....
Gulfs eyes widen.
There is no way that could be....
Getting up quick, he opened the door to then lower the phone.
Mew lowered his to look at the side at gulf.
"Couldn't see, since it was a bit dark in my room, but I love your action figure boxers."
Gulf hung his head to look down to widen his eyes, he made a face, his sister had given these to him.
Mew then placed his phone to his back pocket, to raise his hand to place to his chest to push gulf in to then place his hands behind him to then close the door, to then lock.
Gulf gulped to then lower his phone to eye mew.
"Listen, you didn't need to...."
Mew took a step forward, to place a hand to his cheek.
Gulfs eyes darted.
"I know I didn't need to, I wanted to, what happens when you give me a real chance, you still are.... Aren't you?"
Gulf peered his eyes down.
"I.... Guess...."
He then looked to the side to bring his hand up to make mew lower his.
"We..... Need to get some sleep...."
Gulf turned still not quite sure on what to do, but since mew came all that way, he just couldn't turn him away, mew smiled to then take his clothes off, to go under the covers in only in his boxers, to then wrap an arm about, to pull gulf to his body, the two laid on there sides.
"Mr. Suptra, we don't need to be...."
Mew squeezed him a bit closer .
"Gulfy...... Stop calling me by my last name, and stop being like this, you wanted to go to sleep, so let's go to sleep, we only have a few hours to sleep, then I am going to make you and I breakfest."
Mew snuggled closer.
Gulf signed to then place his phone he was still clutching to his hand, to the side table, to then eye it.
Guess this situation, can't be help.
Gulf then slowly smiled, it had been a long time since anyone seemed to really care about him and wanted to be with him like this. It started to warm his heart a bit, he then closed his eyes, to fall asleep, unwittingly he then turned to snuggle up to mew, who smiled wide has he started to go to sleep with his man in his arms, rather he knew gulf was struggling with this a bit, he could feel the love.