the model

letting the other in

To Gulfs bed, they sat to the edge, gulf was hunched over looking down to the chocolate box mew had given him, to dart his eyes.
Mew was to his side, with a leg up, a hand to it, to eye gulf.
"Mm, better?"
Gulf shrugged. He felt like a total moron, he couldn't believe he cried on his shoulder, it also made him very embarrassed.
Mew made a face to then reach his hand up to place to Gulfs back to rub it up and down.
"Gulfy...... What were you crying about?"
Gulf signed to turn his head to look the other way.
"Just..... Things..... You really don't need to be here."
Mew took a deep breathe to then lean over to hug him once more, he turned his head to his upper shoulder to eye the wall.
Gulf started to chew at his inner cheek.
"Gulfy.... Stop being so strong, has I said, I've talked about at work, I know why your crying..... It's because of your ex isn't it? Tomorrow is the day that he left?"
Gulf closed his eyes to take deep breaths, he didn't want to cry again.
"Mr......I mean.... Mew..... You really shouldn't be here, I am sorry for how I acted earlier, I was an...... But I need to be alone...."
Mew took a deep breathe to then turn his head to place his chin to his upper shoulder to eye.
"Gulfy...... Do you want to know why, I have had nothing but one night stands and no relationship?"
Gulf opened his eyes to furrow his brow, he then turned his head to look to mew.
"What?"
Mew gulped.
"When I first knew I liked boys, I gravitated more towards them, my parents saw that but since I was making the money, they didn't care, well.... When I was young and I kept going on auditions, well, there was this one boy, I really liked him, I thought trying to be with a model would be different, it wouldn't be because of our looks......I was wrong..... At first it was different..... We complemented the other, went on semi dates while we waited, but once things started to get a bit serious, he was just like the rest of them, he then only cared for my looks, then when he saw I was getting more shoots then him, he really started to praise me just to get attention, in the end he did and then went after someone more popular..... It..... Broke my heart.... He..... Was my first love....."
Mew looked down a bit dazed.
Gulfs lips parted.
Placing the chocolates to the side, gulf brought up his hand to his cheek to caress.
Mew closed his eyes to really feel it.
Gulf took a deep breathe to sign, he then let his hand drop to turn his head forward to hang it to look down.
Mew opened his eyes to eye gulf, still holding on tight.
"My ex and I..... Honestly shouldn't have happened..... I'm an idiot to have thought he wasent a player...I didn't want to really believe the rumors.... Thought I could change him and..... We could have been something more..... But I was wrong.... Very wrong...... But I still.... Um.... Um...."
Mew made a face, he then took his hand to his chin to turn Gulfs head to him, there eyes darted.
"You fell for him, didn't you? Also, let me guess, that's why you won't let me cum into you?"
Gulfs eyes widen a bit, to then take his chin from his grasp, to then turn his head the other way to feel embarrassed again.
"Um....." He stuttered a bit.
Mew lightly chuckled, taking a hand down to his, he gripped it to lean back to then place the back of Gulfs hands to his mouth to then kiss.
Gulf started to turn soft, he turned his head to eye the sweet action. Mew kept his eyes to his hand.
"It's okay gulfy, you still need time, I know it took me 2 years before I went after another, the fact that you have swallowed my babies and that we're here like this right now, it shows something, I can wait...."
Mew then looked up to give an impressive smile while he lowered there hands. Gulfs heart couldn't help but accelerate.
"You are worth the wait."
Gulfs lips parted, his whole body started to buzz, this was the sweetest thing any one ever had said to him, he couldn't help it.
Taking his hand from mew, gulf then stood, mew eyed him curiously, to then move about to place both his legs over the bed, to place his hands to either side of himself, to be leaned back a bit.
Gulf took a deep breathe, to then turn to go inbetween his legs.
He then took his hands to his shirt to unbutton, mews eyes widen, he then looked gulf in the eye.
"Gulfy..... We don't need to...."
Gulf then got to the last button to then step closer to place a leg bent to his side, to place his hands to either side of his face, to look adorly at mew, he gulped, the atmosphere surrounding them became very intensed.
Gulf then moved his bottom lip to his sensually.
Mew then gripped the bedding to take in shaky breathes.
Gulping and hard, he then placed his hands to either side of his arms to then move him back, gulf placed his hands to his chest.
"Gulfy...... We do not need to do this, id rather us just embrace the other then....."
Gulf took in a deep breathe, he wanted mew now more then ever.
"Mew...... If we don't make love right now, I need you to leave and not come back, I..... Need this.... Need you so very badly."
Mews lips parted his eye brows rose.
Love?
Mew then looked gulf up and down, placing his hands to his neck, he then pulled him a bit roughly to his lips to then take him down, the two couldn't help but swirl there tongues about the others in a passionate dance.
The two needed the other and even though it was a slip of the tongue, love is exactly what gulf was feeling, he just didn't want to admit it because of what happened with his ex, they both needed to heal and right now that is exactly what they were going to do.