Hair Dye & Emotion

Chapter 21

*Lucy POV*
I'm pregnant... I would be lying if I said I didn't expect this to happen eventually but I always told myself that I didn't want kids but I guess that's all changed now but the again the future is never set in stone. The paths people take can always change because their mindset can change with it. Me and Alicia were sitting in the living room the night after I had found out I was pregnant. I had kept all the tests but hidden them from Ashton.

"How are you gunna tell him?" Alicia asked me and I automatically began to panic because I had no idea how I was going to tell him. I'd been awake for a good portion of last night thinking about it. Things seemed so complicated. Ashton had been worried after I left the bathroom but I told him that I had been really ill which wasn't necessarily a lie

"I have no idea. What if he leaves me? His career is so important to him and the boys. I don't want to mess that up and oh my god what if I've fucked up". The tears began to stream down my face at a rapid pace and she was kick to wipe them away.

"Why are you crying? There's nothing to worry about" She told her, wrapping me in her arms. "If there's anything I know it's that Ashton loves you more than anything. He will be an amazing dad. You need to tell him. It's going to be okay. You know he wants to be a dad." It's true. I knew Ashton wanted to be a dad but I'd never actually given much thought to trying with him yet. I wanted him to enjoy his career of travelling the world and making music with his 3 best friends. It's all he ever wanted but having a baby would jeopardise that... wouldn't it? I wouldn't get rid of this baby, it was MY baby. I would never go to typeset extremes, I find it disgusting and am too against abortion to go through with it.

"How am I going to tell him? Should I brace myself for the worst?" I asked her, my voice cracking as I thought of all the possible outcomes that telling Ashton could produce.

"Why don't you just show him the tests?" A lightbulb went off in my head. Showing him the tests meant the words didn't have to leave my mouth yet. I was still getting used to the idea that there was another life growing inside of me. I would say the words eventually but keeping Ashton in the dark about this was wrong and I knew that. I needed to tell him.

"Okay. It's wrong to keep him in the dark... I'm going to tell him" I said, speaking mostly to myself, my nerves everywhere.

"If shit goes sour, Ashton knows my foot will connecting with his precious twosome" Alicia winked at me and I couldn't help but laugh. She always knew how to cheer me up. I'm glad to have taken a friend like her with me throughout life. Everyone needs a friend like Alicia. She's just there and she'll listen and comfort you. She's amazing.

"Where is Ashton anyway?" I looked at the clock and saw that it was heading towards 4:30. He left an hour and a half ago saying he had an errand to run and that he wouldn't be long.

"I have no idea but I need to head off home and finish my unpacking and make dinner. I'll call you later okay? I love you penguin!" I laughed at her and hugged her before she departed. 'Penguin' had become out little inside joke when we were around 14.

*flashback*

"Lucy! You know how penguins chose one mate and spend the rest of their life with them?" I was on the phone to Alicia and she was having one of her manic random episodes that I love so much about her.

"Yeah? Where are you going with this you looney?" I giggled at her weirdness.

"Well it's kinda like our friendship. I don't wanna ever end this friendship so... Lucy WILL YOU BE MY PENGUIN!"

That was where penguin had spawned from and we had just carried it on ever since. I laid back on the sofa and flipped through the channels to see of their was anything worth watching on. My eyes kept flickering to the clock but I shook the urge off. I wasn't dreading Ashton coming home, I just needed him home so I could tell him and stop my constant worrying. Grabbing a fleece blanket from the back of the sofa, I turned Netflix on and began to search for a movie to watch.