Hair Dye & Emotion

Chapter 19

*Alicia POV*

When I finally got back to Michael's, I still felt as determined as I had when I left Lucy's. I didn't want to be this scarred, afraid person anymore. I wasn't going to let anything hold me back. I wasn't going to let go of the grim events of the past. I was taking control of my life and leaping over that god forsaken barrier. I stood outside the doorway, taking deep breaths to steady myself before I went into the eye of the storm. I knew it was still going to be awkward as fuck between me and Michael but I had caused it so I would deal with the awkwardness.I couldn't procrastinate this any longer so I opened the door and entered the threshold.

"Michael?" I called out. There was no answer but I knew he was here, I could hear video games. I rounded the corner to see Michael sitting with a headset on, playing some kind of shooting game. The only video games I really associated myself with were guitar hero or the LEGO games so I didn't have a clue what the game was but the headset told me why he didn't answer me when I called; he hadn't heard me. Seeing him fully concentrated on the game gave me a devious idea, I was going to scare him. It would be fun and I hoped it would diffuse some of the tension that had risen. He wouldn't hear me approaching so I jumped over the back of the sofa and grabbed his shoulders as I landed. I had never seen someone jump or move so fast in my life and he screamed like a little girl. I began to laugh hysterically, tears rolling down my face. Michael was at the other end of the room, in some kind of ninja pose which only added fuel to my insane laughing.

"Oh my god! What the fuck! I could have killed you! You gave me a heart attack!" He whined at me, I wiped the tears from my eyes and looked at him.

"Killed me? With what? Your 'awesome ninja moves' Mikey? You should have seen your face! I've never seen something so funny in my life!" My ribs were aching from how hard I had been laughing so I clutched them, waiting for the stitch to disappear. He smiled at me and came to sit next to my sprawled out body on the sofa. A silence fell over us and it was anything but comfortable.

"So... Michael... about last night..." I glaned up at him to see his head in his hands, taking a deep breath like I had before I came inside.

"It's okay. I know I was pushing you out of your comfort zone. Yeah, I do really like you but I don't know if you feel the same way because these feelings have developed so fast and I don't know what to do and oh my god what if I've messed this friendship up? I'm sorry and-"

"Michael! Calm down! Your rambling on! I do like you too but I need time to clear my head and I didn't want to rush into anything. I've spent the past year getting over everything that happened with Jason and yes, one day I will tell you everything that happened with him but I want to take this slow. I don't want to shy away from anything or push people away anymore. I want to move forward with my life and forget about the past. I can't change what happened but I can get back to the person I used to be. I want you to help me dig her back up." I told him. His face was lit up and I'm not going to lie, it was fucking beautiful.

"You like me too?" He asked me cautiously. It was like he was stepping on egg shells around me and I didn't want it to be like that. I smiled and nodded my head.

"Of course I do, you pizza loving idiot!" I went to shove his arm playfully but he moved to grab my arm and pulled me into a vice like bear hug. "Michael, I'd like to breathe please!" I wheezed, trying to return the hug to him with as much force as he was hugging me whilst trying to get air in and out of my currently crushed lungs. He automatically released me and looked me dead in the eyes, the spark in his eyes twinkling brightly.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to hug you that tight. I'm sorry"

"Michael, if you apologize one more time, I will slap a bitch" I told him, trying to keep my face straight so he would take my words seriously.

"Okay, I'm sorry. Shit!" I looked at him then laughed.

"It's okay Mikey, it's hard not to apologize sometimes. I forgive you" I hugged him again, him being more careful with me this time round.

"Okay, so what do you want to do for dinner?" Michael asked me, switching his game off and picking his headset up that had fallen to the ground when I scared him. I remembered then that Lucy and Ashton had invited us over for dinner and then we could relax and have an American Horror Story marathon afterwards. I quickly texted her to let her know we were coming over and turned bck to Michael.

"Lucy and Ash have invited us over for dinner and an American Horror Story marathon." I told him. He jumped up from the sofa, fist bumping the air.

"Hell yeah! Score!"

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"I feel so full of food... I'm still gunna try and eat another slice" Calum said, attemping to shove another slice of pizza in his mouth, placing his hand on his stomach. Considering he was gay, he didn't act like he was. Then again not all gay guys show it and act flamboyant like Louie Spence. I giggled at the thoughts that wander around my head. No one asked what I was laughing at, thinking I was laughing at Calum's statement and I was glad for that. Lucy and Ash had invited Team Cake over too then again we were all AHS fanatics.

"Should we start the marathon? I'm ready for some Tate loving!" Lucy shouted, earning a pout from Ashton.

"Hey, you're mine" he said. I laughed and took Lucy's side on this argument because come on, who will deny Evan Peters hotness.

"But Ashton, if you guys can fanboy over Ariana Grande or some other bitch ass hoe then we can drool over Tate Langdon. Besides, Even Peters is a hot mother trucker so suck my dick bitches!" Lucy laughed and flung her arm around my shoulders.

"And that guys, is why this is my beautiful, sassy best friend." She walked over to the telivison to switch it on, flipping her hair over her shoulder, forgetting about the all too obvious lovebites that occupied her neck. I was gunna warn her and tell her to cover them but it was too late.

"Oh My GAAAAAWWD! Lucy! The fuck happened to your neck! Wait... Ashton happened!" Luke screamed and I facepalmed and groaned. This was gunna be embarrasing.

"Whaa..What?" Lucy quickly readjusted her hair and blushed deeply, looking at Ashton for support but he was blushing and looked lost for words.

"So you did get some! But damn! Her neck man!" Michael said, laughing. I motioned for Lucy to come and sit down next to me and she gladly bolted back over. She lent over to whisper in my ear.

"I'm glad they didn't see Ash's back" She said and I laughed, causing all the other boys to stop teasing Ashton about his kinky behaviour and look at me. I just shrugged off thier questioning looks and looked towards the screen, focusing on Tate being an adorable little shit

A/N

Hey guys! How are you all! So here is another update which I hope you will love! If any of you are wondering who Louie Spence is, he is a dance, a very camp openly gay dancer and I and actually love him cos he don't care what people say about him. This book hit 600 reads! Thanks so much guys! Ilyasm and I hope you like this, it took me a while (two days?) but here it is. AND big drama coming soon! Can I get an oooooooooo? No? Okay.. Anyway I'll update soon! Ily <3<3<£