Our Son: A Love So Deep.

Our Son (Part 39)

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*Nompumelelo*

Nowadays you are very lucky to have to stay with your first love and make a lifetime commitment with that person. I thought Mbuso was my lifetime companion but he had to go and ruin everything and kill all the love I had then came in Mmelokuhle who made his way straight to my heart within a day.

Speaking to his grandmother was such a blessing I found myself opening up to her than I ever do with anyone. I shared with her all my deep and dark secrets. My Hope’s and dreams. And my fear with being with her grandson what if I’m not good enough for him what if one day they force him to marry someone with royal blood in them I know these things phela I watch movies and read royal novels. I hope that wont be the case for us though.
She has this aura with her that gives you peace especially when she brushes my hair she told me no matter what happens I shall never cut my hair. This hair makes me.

I just finished bathing now laying on the bed with nothing to do…I’m bored my boys still aren’t back and Vusi hasn’t asked me anything I feel so alone. I want to call my mother but I’m scared. I dial Thuli instead and she picks up on the third ring.

“Your Highness or is it Her Majesty the Queen.” She laughs and I join her.

“Mrs Mweli stop being a drama queen tu.”

“Between me and you who is the Queen.”

“You are not funny yazi. Anyway unjani I miss you.”

“I’m okay just these kids are driving me crazy…have you spoken to mom.” She says and I sigh. I knew she was going to ask me about that.

“Thuli I called you to talk about you and not about me.”

“Don’t do that with me. Call mom and talk to your sister she needs you more than ever.”

“Thuli…”

“Aai Nompumelelo you can’t push away everyone because you don’t like what they say.”

“So you agree with her? I’m a selfish bitch who only cares about myself.”

“A bitch yes! But not selfish…”

“What do you mean yes? Thuli don’t be like that and besides how do I move on from this…she hates me.”

“You know that’s not true…she loves you and you ignoring everyone right now is making the matter worse. Talk your dad ke.” 

“I will Thuli just not right now I’m going through some things which I wish my mom was by my side but with everything going on it’s hard. You know last week on the same day my sister decided to trash me Mbuso showed up here and he threatened to take my son I cant even share that with my own mother because I don’t know where I stand with them…I’m all alone Thuli.”

I wasn’t planning on crying today but talking about this is damn hard and its breaking my heart.

“That’s not true…you have me and everyone else. Don’t push us away you know when you need us we will stop anything and everything and come to you just like you’ve been with all of us…allow us back in your life.” I let my tears fall.

I didn’t even see when Mmelokuhle came in the room till he cleared his throat.

“Uhm Thuli I will call you back neh.”

“Nompumelelo don’t do that… don’t hang up.”

“Mmelokuhle just walked in…I will call you neh I love you sis.” I hang up without  waiting for her to reply me.