Fight for my Star

~Loki's Secret~

Loki's Pov (By the way this takes place a few nights before the thunderstorm.)

It had been about a month since y/n left. She was the only person besides my mother who trusted me with all of their heart. She was kind to me and always made sure that I was okay. She made sure that I would stay out of trouble for my own good and always had my back if I did manage to get into some mischief. Most importantly she was by my side when even my own brother wasn't. I knew this was hard for her because they were best friends and I saw the way they looked at each other, they did love each other and just didn't know.

Y/n was one of my dearest friends and I knew that I was one of her's. It was really hard to let her go, but I knew it was best for both her and my brother. 

Thor had been very hurt by her miss-presence. He went to Heimdall every day searching for any signs of her returning home. I visited Heimdall too, hoping that lady y/n was okay. He gave me more straight answers than Thor knowing they would hurt him more than me. He told me of her staying up at night remembering her home and the people who were closest to her (mainly Thor.) Heimdall didn't know her exact thoughts as he could only see her, not read her mind. So I decided that I should go down to earth to check on her. 

Just as I was about to leave Thor had sent his guards to collect me. "The king wishes to speak to you." One of the men said as they approached me. "Whatever could he want me for. I was one of the reasons he and y/n stopped talking?" I asked the guards before following them back to the castle. "Make sure not to pull any tricks in there." Another guard told me while opening the big doors. 

I walked down a long path that led to the throne. There was gold surrounding me, as every inch of this place was covered in it. "Took you long enough," Thor stated sitting comfortably on his throne. "It is a bit of a walk from the Bifrost," I told him seeing a look of confusion cross his face as I did. "What were you doing there?" He asked leaning forward in his seat. "Just talking to Heimdall," I said knowing he would know exactly what we were talking of. "You are one of the reasons she left!" He shouted at me as his anger grew inside. "That was all your doing." I shot back. "Maybe if you had've just seen that you loved her you never would have chosen Asgard over her." I continued. "Asgard is my home, I swore an oath to protect it and its people." He yelled again looking even more irritated than before. "And she was one of your people until you drove her away," I shouted hoping it would shut him up. And it did. He sat there silently for a moment before calling the guards back in. "Take him to a cell. He is dangerous." He commanded. "You can't just lock me up whenever you get mad at me." "But I can now that I'm the king." He snarled at me before the guards cuffed me and led me to a small cell underneath the castle.

The cells on Asgard were not horrible. They were well lit. There were books, a table, a chair, and a bed. I had been here before but y/n was there to visit me and convince Odin to let me out. This time I knew that I was going to be alone though. The guards would bring me new books whenever I asked but I soon grew bored of reading. I had been in here for a few days and I had started to think about y/n again. I wanted to know how she was and what she was thinking of. Did she still cry herself to sleep each night? Was she still okay? Was she hurt? I had to know this. I used all the power inside of me to see her thoughts at the moment. "Why did I leave like that? Does he even care about me anymore? I wish I was back home. I wish I could talk to Loki and that Thor and I never fought." Her thoughts raced through her head so fast I could hardly hear them. I jumped up from the chair I had been sitting in. My energy felt drained but I knew I had to do something about her pain. 

I thought about this all night before deciding on a plan. I had to get out of here, go to Midgard, find y/n, and erase her memories of Asgard. I knew she wouldn't come back home, and that she would only become angry with me if I asked her to, so this was the best plan. She was in pain thinking about this golden place and the people in it, so if I took these thoughts from her she could be happy.

As for leaving this place, I would get the big horned monster who was locked up across from me to burn the cells. While the guards were busy, so that they wouldn't look for me I would create an illusion. I knew that I couldn't ask Heimdall to take me to Midgard because that would go against the king's orders. Instead, I used one of my secret ways out. 

My plan was put into action. The monster turned the whole cellar into flames. I made it seem as though my cell was untouched and I was just quietly reading a book, ignoring the chaos that surrounded the cellar. I snuck out without being seen and went to find my ship. It was hard to sneak around all of the guards but I had done it before and many of them were more occupied at the moment. 

As I left Asgard I thought of how much pain y/n was in. It hurt her to think of our home, of me, Of Thor and their fight. I had to end this hurt for her because it was hurting me to see her like this. She didn't know it yet, but by tomorrow she would never have to cry over her past again. I didn't think this through fully in how Thor would be affected but it was for his happiness too. If he knew she had forgotten and moved on then he could do the same.

I arrived on Midgard. It was dark meaning it must be nighttime. I had to be careful with entering y/n's house, for if she was still up she would hurt me not knowing who was breaking in. I first looked into her thoughts, which were a lot easier to access now that I was in the same realm as her. She was asleep, meaning it was okay to head in. I found a key under the cushion of one of the wooden chairs placed on the porch of the small house. It took a moment but then the key turned and the lock clicked. I opened the door carful not to attract attention from any neighbours that could still be up. As I walked in, I saw a small set of stairs that led to the second floor where y/n lay peacefully asleep. I climbed these stairs hoping none of them would creek as I took each step. 

Once I arrived at the top, there was a door to my left that seemed to be slightly open. As I pushed it open more a loud creek came from the hinges. Thankfully y/n didn't wake from this sound. I tiptoed over to her bed where she lay so quietly. Streaks from tears were stained on her beautiful face. A book was in her hand, her thumb in between the pages she had been reading. Her mouth did not smile as it used to when she slept. Instead, a slight frown was across her mouth as if she were having a bad dream. She started to move slightly, her breathing picked up and a small tear fell from her eye. At this sight I quickly but gently placed my hand over her forehead, taking away everything she knew before coming to this town and everything that had happened involving talk of Asgard. "I'm sorry, your head may hurt tomorrow but your heart will feel no more pain," I whispered before taking my hand away.

She stopped moving and her breaths were steady again. I smiled at her once again happy face. I knew I couldn't see her again for she wouldn't know who I was so I took in all of her features and thought over many of the happy times we shared together. I had never felt so much loss, not even when I found out my father had lied to me my whole life. This was so much worse because at least she was there when that happened, and now I would only have our memories to see her in. A small tear trickled down my face as I whispered, "I'll miss you, but at least you will be happier now." I then decided it was time to head back home to Asgard, locking the door on my way out.