This is my life (multifandom fanfic) in editing

Will He Find Out?

My phone beeped and they released me from the hug. It was Matt. Rydel glanced at my phone and Ross moved his hand where it was placed on my lower back. He felt as if Matt was watching, honestly I don't know what Matt would think if he found out about all of this. Obviously he would be upset I still have alot of feelings for Ross and now I'm hanging out with him. 

M: Hey

"Should I reply?" I asked Rydel. "Will he try to make plans with you?" I hesitated, somtimes he's come over without me knowing. I felt a pang of anxiety, they could all sense it. 

A: Sorry can't talk now at the studio xoxo

M: thought u didnt have the studio today..? 

A: Change of plans. I have to work on my new EP. I love doing those. I wanna see u tomorrow tho. love you 

M: Have fun with your EP, love you too baby love. 

For some reason I'm a sucker when people people call me 'baby love'. I don't even know honestly. It's not even a think people call other people but I love calling my fans that as well. I took a deep breath and a tear rolled down my face. 

Ross helped me sit down holding my hands and had his other arm around my shoulders. "It'll be okay. I want you to love Matt like you did the first day you met him." Ross had watched my videos, he knew I had love at first sight with Matt, the same thing with Ross. I started to cry a bit more. Riker came by my other side. 

"Shh." He said resting his hand on my arm conforting me. "I want you to be happy. I don't want you to be like this. If you can't be with me I want you to be with someone who treats you well and he does. You have to understand that." I held in my tears and nodded. 

I smiled. "We're gonna have to talk alot more." He smiled. "We will baby love." I gave a little laugh. "You remebered." "Of course." He whispered his face getting closer to mine. I was afraid to look up, Riker took his hand off mine but I barley noticed. 

I knew that if I looked up I would be face to face with my love, my true love and I couldn't resisit the urge to kiss him, it has been too long since I felt his beautiful lips. I looked up and we locked eyes. And that said a thousand words. 

I could feel he knew that the videos I wished they were with him and truly loved him and I was just in a bad state right now and this was the only solutuion. I made the first move I leaned in and lightly placed my lips agaist his and he did the same. 

The kiss wasn't long but wasn't short, almost like our first kiss. 

He had his hand around my waist. "Wait lyssie have you gotten thinner?" Everyone looked at me and I hesitated. "Well yeah, I've been like exercising more." I avoided looking at him. He of all people would know how much I had weighed and if I had gained or lost weight. 

"How many meals do you eat a day?" He asked, they all starred at me with concern. "Like 2 FULL meals." They all exchanged looks. "You don't have to be super thin to be famous." Riker said. I intrupted him. "It's not that." I said looking down Ross had his hand on my thigh which was incredibly thinner from the past 6 months. 

"It's another one of those downfall things. Ever since I broke up with Ross I haven't eaten as much as I used to. I know you guys used to always remind me but maybe fame got to me. That perfect image that I wanted." Ross took my hand. 

"This is why I needed you guys." Rydel nodded. "We'll help you I promise." She sat on the floor below me and I smiled. "I love you guys. But it's not like I'm unhealthy. Like my fans haven't been saying I'm anorexic." 

We all just sat in silence and I laid my head on Ross' shoulder. "When do you have to leave?" I asked knowing I would have to eventually. "We have a show tomorrow night." Rattliff sat on the floor by me and Rocky followed. 

"We'll be back in Cali in a week or two." Ross assured me, putting his arm around me like the old days. Riker looked at his phone. It was 6:45. I noticed him do it. "What time do you guys have to leave?"

"We should leave at around 7:30." Riker said and Ross looked down. I sighed, knowing I couldn't stop them.

 "Do you think he knows?" Rydel asked talking about Matt.  "How could he?" Rydel nodded in agreement with me. "I feel bad ignoring him, I mean I really love him." Rydel clarifyed what I should do and we all decided to eat spaghetti tacos and watch part of a movie like the old time to try to cheer up.

Ross and I shared the chair we always used to, I was practicaly sitting on top of him and he had his arms around me. I missed this so much. It just isn't the same with anyone else.

I smiled. And I actually felt happy. I felt so genuinely happy that it made me sad I hadn't felt like this in so long. It made me sad I didn't feel This way with Matt or my fans.

Because I really loved both.

But I think true love is different. I think that's what Ross and I have. That's something that will always stay there, ever since I saw him on Austin and Ally and thought, "Wow hes really cute!"

The movie ended and Ross and I were still cuddling. Of course we had been over everything that happened in their life which included Rydel and Ellington now dating. So Ross and I weren't the only ones being love-y dovey.

Yes, it did feel wrong. But it felt right at the same time. I think I should do what makes me happy. If Ross makes me happy I should love him, which I do. But I cant be with Ross right now. But I will wait for him.

It was 7:15. I looked at Riker and he nodded. We all said our painful good byes and watched them drive away with tears in my eyes.

Bringing this group chat back.

I typed in the group chat with the 5 of them

A/n: currently editing this whole book and they updated wattpad on my phone so I may b updating on my phone more even tho it takes longer to type. Xoxo vote comment and add