This is my life (multifandom fanfic) in editing

Dear Alyssa,

Ross' POV 

About a month has passed since I told Rydel I was still in love with Alyssa. She didn't tell anyone though, I could tell. The boys would have asked me about it or bothered me about it. 

I decided that I would write her letters oNot that I would send them to her or text them to her. I'm not even sure if I ever wanna show her even if we ever do get back together. 

Dear Alyssa, 

I know this is really stupid but I decided to write you letters ing you how I honestly feel about you. I'm never gonna show these to you probably but I need some way to communicate to you. 

We broke up maybe 6 months ago. Wow, I don't even wanna keep track anymore. Has it really been that long since we last kissed? Since I last felt your presense? 

I know you would want me to be having fun on tour. I mean I am right? Yes. I am. I enjoy meeting my fans and hanging out with my best friends. I guess what I'm trying to say is I wish you were here with me. I wish we could stay up late on the tour bus watching stupid shows and laughing all night. 

I know we all miss you. Rydel even told herself. We've been doing alot of songwriting, I have alot to communicate. I guess a broken heart helps you alot when it comes to songs. 

The one thing I really wanna tell you is, I'm still in love with you. 

I know you don't wanna hear this but I am. You've ovbviously moved on. I mean you dated Nash and you are currently dating Matt. I guess you have a thing for vine boys. R5 made a vine account. Not to copy them or anything but if you wanna check it out or something like that. 

I hope Matt is treating you well. He seems nice. And I hope you didn't break up with Nash because he was treating you badly. You deserve to be treated like a princess. 

You text me ocassionaly. Once or twice a month. I wish you did more often. But yeah I get it. Your wish Matt. 

You always ask my advice on songs. You could just ask Ariana but I'm glad you ask me. I like to hear your voice before anyone else does. I like to hear your lyrics. It shows me how your feeling and I think thats cool. I'll admit I do miss late night song writing where I would have a guitar and you had your voice and we would just roll with it. 

And yes, I still have all those videos of us doing that on my phone. Sorry. 

You have alot of heartbreak songs. I wonder if they are about me? Probably not. Maybe one or two but not all of them. 

I'm starting to wonder if you ever really loved me? It seemed like you did but you never had a boyfriend before me. Maybe you didn't know what love really was. 

I honestly hope in the future that we will get back together and get married like we promised but maybe that wasn't love and...

I wish I could know these answers because this is driving me insane. 

But just to make one thing clear. I havent stopped loving you since the day we met 3 years ago. And I don't think I will every stop loving you. 

 I just wanna talk to you in person and I seem so desperate and I know its stupid I just miss you I guess and I see you with Matt and that video you made with him about how much you loved him and you guys looked so in love. 

And I wonder is that what we looked like. are you really in love with Matt? 

I'm not sure if it was my mistake for having to go on tour, but if it wasn't for tour I wouldn't have met you. But I also do love the band and the R5family so its not like I would quit music. No I would never do that. Because my music is what  made you fall in love with me. 

I might show this to Rydel since she knows I still love you. I'm just lying awake on the couch writing this and replaying the song you showed me. I really do like it. I hope it breaks the charts. 

 I wish we could just go back to the start, the day I met you and I could relive all that again and see you become a global superstar in just a few months. Wow that would be amazing. 

I'm kinda tired now so I'll sleep but I might contuie this. 

Good luck. NIght I love you. 

Yours Truly, 

Ross Shor

Alyssa's POV 

It was my 4th month with Matt and I decided it was gonna be special. For our one month Matt took me out to this really fancy dinner, 2nd month I went back to his house in Virginia and met his family, 3rd he bought me a promise ring and now its the 4th and I'm gonna do something. 

I called Matt as soon as I woke up. 

A: Hey guess what day it is? 

M: I know what day it is. Its our 4 month. 

A: I hope you have nothing planned because I have a big suprise for you. Be ready in at least a half an hour to an hour. I'll be over soon I wanna show you something. 

M: O kk. Love you

A: Love you too. 

I hung up and got ready. 

45 minutes later I started to drive over to Matt's house. He greetd me at the door with a kiss. As we were walking outside he asked what I was doing. 

"You'll see." I smirked as I started driving a very farmiliar route. 

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