This is my life (multifandom fanfic) in editing

Over Again?

A/N: Imagine Alyssa has a singing voice. I idolize Demi and honestly I think she is the best singer in the world, just my opnion and I try to base my singing voice after her so that's what she sings like. 

Alyssa's POV 

Nearing out 2 months we started to not do all the things that we used to. Like interrupt each other with kisses and hang out all the time and I think all the boys were noticing it to. I started to hang out with Matt more. 

Honestly when I met Matt for the first time I felt in love with him, then I spent more time with Nash and I was in love with him. Now i feel as if something that I can't fix is going on with Nash and he just needs time to himself. 

I felt as if I was falling in love with Matt again. After the show I told Nash I wanted to talk to him. I felt as if our relationship was fading apart and I wanted to see if he felt the same way. 

I talked with him alone and it seemed like everything that happened over the past 2 months didn't exist. "What's wrong?" I asked holding his hands. He looked down not looking me in the eyes. 'Nash." i said again insitsing him to talk. 

"I feel really bad." He said, I urged him to go on. "Cameron and I made a bet that if I could ask you out and you said yes, he would do something big for me." I was shocked and what he saidm but wanted him to go on. "So I did and you said yes, but at first it was ust a bet but then when we went on our first date I started to really like you, then love you and I didn't think that would happen." 

He sighed and took a breath. "But now the guilt is getting to me, and I know you'd rather be with Matt and I'm pretty sure he likes you too." I didn't know what to say at this point but I think he just broke up with me. "Buy we're always gonna be best friends." I said slowly letting go of his hands. 

He smiled, that smile I would miss. "Yeah" He nodded. He stood up, "I'm gonna talk to Matt." I instantly shot up, "About what?" I asked following him towards the door. "You." He went to open the door. 

I stood in front of him blocking him from leaving, "What about me?" I asked again. "I want you guys to date, I want you to be happy." I acknowleded that, wow, I thought. "What about you?" I asked softening up a bit. 

He glanced down, then looked at my lips. He grabbed my face and kissed me softly. "I'll find something." He then walked out of the room and I didn't even know what to do now.

I sat back down on the couch, I couldn't even feel a distinct emotion, was I sad? Happy? Mad? I couldn't tell.

That night I didn't talk to anyone else I just went home and decided to write a song. A/n: This song is a Selena Gomez song but lets just pretend its hers because i love sel and the lyrics fit this

I called it "Forget Forever" I really didn't know who I wrote it about, Ross or Nash? Maybe both? Maybe being in this break up I thought about the other one. I decied to text Ross at 12 at night and suprisingly he replied a few minutes later.

A: Hey

R: Hey lyssie. Whats up?

A: Nash and I broke up. :(

R: Oh wow Really?

A: Yeah, he said he thinks I like Matt.

R: Well do you?

A: Well I guess maybe a little

R: Not that its a bad thing but why did you come to me?

A: I really dont know

I wanted to ask you advice on something

R: Yeah anything

A: I wrote a song, idk it just came to me, can u give me feedback

*attaches video of her singing Forget Forever*

R: Wow thats a great song, cant wait to hear it blowing up the charts

A: Thanks *heart emoji*

R: Welc *heart emoji* wud it be a single?

A: Yeah I really want people to hear it

R: Thats good, look sorry lyss im so tired I just finished a show I neeed to sleep talk to you soon

A: Yeah course yeah see ya soon

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Ross' POV

I really didn't know what to think of those messages with Alyssa. I haven't talked to her in maybe a month and she comes and tells me that she broke up with Nash and now she's writing a song about it.

Honestly I felt the song was about me, not Nash. Maybe she was trying to tell me that those were her emotions, maybe I should ask her if she wrote any songs similar to this one. Breakup type of songs to see if they were about me.

When she told me she broke up with Nash I felt a spark of possiblity, like maybe she would like me. Then I remeber, she's over me, and I can't date her even if I wanted too because I'm halfway across the world.

When she told me she kinda liked Matt I felt a part of me break, why did I even break up with her in the first place? I feel like we are never gonna get back together now, not after all these boys chasing after her.

I heard Rydel get out of her bunk below me and I watched her move onto the couch in the other area of the bus. As quietly as I could I snuck out of my bunk and joined her. \

She looked up at me and smiled as I sat down next to her. "Hey Ross." She said plainly almost sadly. "What's wrong?" I asked putting my arm around her imagining it was Alyssa and I was comforting her. She stiffiled a laugh. "It's stupid." She said sighing.

"No, Tell me" I nudged her. "I miss Alyssa." She said looking up at me as if I was older and knew more than she did. Well maybe I knew more about relationships than she did, but she sure was older than me.

"Same." I muttered then thought about how Rydel was feeling. That was her best friend, just being taken away from her. She probably feels replaced since Alyssa's been hanging out ALOT with Ariana latley and Rydel must feel sad too.

She doesn't have her Gossip Girl buddy, or other girl on the tour, or makeup advice helper with her anymore.

I felt as if a tear might escape my eye but instead some words escpaed my lips.

"I'm still in love with her."

A/N: So sorry I haven't updated in forver! My computer broke and i'M using my dad's computer now. I wanted to update this ASAP and I'm starting to really enjoy this fanfic so I hope u guys r too!

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