This is my life (multifandom fanfic) in editing

What Do I Do Now?

Alyssa's POV

I drove home after talking with Taylor. The first thing I did was go to my room and cry. I felt so alone. Pople assume when your famous that you have everything, but in reality you don't. People insult me and critize me and I never know who my friends are and I never know who to trust. 

It's just hard. 

I wiped the tears off my face not even bothering to look at my phone. I don't know what I wanted anymore. I really didn't. Ross is still on tour so even if he's what I want I can't get him and I love Matt. Just a few weeks ago I was crying because of how much I loved him. 

I confuse my self 99 percent of the time. 

Taylor told me to go with my heart, but what if my heart is in a million pieces. Which piece do I follow? 

I looked at R5's instagram account to see where they were. They were in Colorado. Thye just had a show there. That was only about a 2 hour flight from Colorado to Cali. I have no idea what I'm doing but I dialed Ross' number. 

I was still crying. He picked up, it was around 4. 

R: Alyssa? Why are you calling whats wrong? 

A: I'm so sorry for calling Ross. I just don't know what to do anymore. 

I said between tears. 

R: Lyssie are you crying? 

A: Yeah

I took a gasp of breath

R: Whats wrong? 

A: Do you think it's possible for you to get on the next flight to California? 

I heard suffling in the background. I heard Rydel's voice, "Who is it?" I missed her voice. "Alyssa." He replied. I missed his voice so much omfg. I heard more talking. 

"Fly to California?" She said a bit louder than everything else. "It's really important." He said. "I'm talking to Riker but I'm talking to Alyssa before you hang up that phone."

R: Delly is gonna talk to Riker.

A: Thank you so much I'm sorry to put you through this. 

"Hell yes! Get in the car guys we're going to California!" I heard from the background. I smiled because I knew it wass Riker's voice. 

A: I love all you guys and I've missed you so much and no one could ever replace you and I wanna see you. Tell them I love them. I'll see you soon Ross. 

R: I love you too and they love you I'll see you soon. 

I took deep breaths, I  would be okay. Ross is coming, he's coming all the way from Colorado for me. 

Matt's POV 

While I was on twitter today I saw  it was trending that Alyssa is the new Taylor Swift which is completly incorrect. 

A bunch of my fans were saying as well that I was spending too much time on Alyssa than my fans. I mean that's not true either. I decided I would make a long letter in my notes and tweet it. 

@TheMatthewEspinosa: I was looking at twitter today and I saw that people were saying my girlfriend, Alyssa Marley, is the "New Taylor Swift" this is completly incorrect. And I am not overly paying attention to her and some of you think so. I mean guys, I am just an ordinary boy and I'm gonna hang out with my girlfriend yes. Because I love her. And honestly you guys should be more supporting, I know her personaly and you don't therefore you can't tell me what I should and should not be doing with her. I mean and I love and support all of mt fans and I would do anything for you but I wish you could take a look into my actual world and see what this is all like. 

Alyssa's POV 

Ross texted me about 2 hours after I called him. "Landing in a few we're gonna try to get there ASAP" I took deep breaths claming myself, my hero is here. "Should I meet you somewhere?" I asked. "No, that will create chaos, we're just taking a  'vist' here." "K cya in a few" 

I hated the way I ended that. I had been pacing around my house and a few minutes ago I saw this long thing that Matt tweeted about me and how much he loves me but I don't want to lead him on if I'm not in love with him. I guess the thing is I hate being alone if I can't be with Ross and I need a distraction from the pain. 

20 minutes passed and a farmiliar car drove down the driveway. I rubbed my eyes trying to push away the tears, I ran downstairs like a child on Christmas Day. The only person who had gotten out of the car was Ross and I ran up to him and jumped in his arms. He spun me around. 

I think that both made us think we were dating again. "Are you okay?" He asked setting me down. "I don't know anymore." The rest of them got out of the car and I started sobbing. Rydel came up to me and wrapped me in a hug. I hugged back. 

"I've missed all you guys so much and I never got to say goodbye to you and I was so used to everything you did and how I lived with you and it's like my life took a dramatic turn and it's been 6 months. It's been half a year and I still haven't been able to get used to it." 

The sky started to get a dark gray color as if it was going to rain. It fit my mood. "Let's go inside." Riker said. I admired him so much, still. I always will. He's a leader, he cares about everyone around him. He still knew everything about my house. 

We all walked inside Ross had his arm around me on one side and Rydel on the other. My two best friends. We all went upstairs and sat on the bean bags on the floor, I still had them. Ross and I used to always share one. I sat down in my usual one and he hesitated. 

For some reason I felt a brief pang of sadness, llike he didn't like me. But then I remebered Matt, he didn't want him to find out. And Ross doesn't know I'm in love with him. 

"Sit." I gestured to a space on the bean bag, he sat down next to me with our legs slightly touching, a tear rolled down my cheek because I remebered the way we used to be. He used to have his arm around me hugging me tight to him so no one could touch me. Every so often he would kiss me on the cheek and I would turn and give him a peck on the lips. Sometimes I could put my legs over his and he would support my back. 

"What's wrong sis?" Riker said noticing me. I took a deep breath again which resulted in a sniffle. He called me sis again that triggered it more. "I'm so lost in this world." I finially said. 

A/N: I'm actually obssesed with this chapter and I was gonna make it long but this was the perf way to end. Hope you guys enjoy read vote comment and enjoy xoxo