This is my life (multifandom fanfic) in editing

New Relationships and Saying Goodbye to Old

We met all the boys and watched the show, Nash always kept smiling at me and so did Matt. Cameron even announced Ariana and I were in the audience which resulted in a bunch of screams. At the end of the show people took a few pics with Ariana and I and we didn't even mind. I was too excited to talk to Nash. 

As a fan finihsed taking a picture with me Nash snuck up behind me and hugged me. "Nash." I smiled and laughed and he pulled me into a kiss. And I'm not gonna lie, I liked it. 

I hung out with all the boys the whole day and got all their numbers obviously, just the night before I was fangirling over them and now I'm kissing Nash and hanging out with them. That night I texted Ross. 

Ross's POV 

R5 and I were hanging out at my house my phone beeped and it was Alyssa. I got up and left the room, I had no idea what she was going to say and I didn't want them to see my reaction. 

A: Ross, I have to talk to you. 

R: Yeah, whats wrong?

A: Remeber when you said I could date anyone? 

I instanly got nervous and my eyes started to water. Did she move on that fast? Did I mean nothing to her? Did she really ever love me? 

R: Yeah...

A: Well I went to the magcon and Nash asked me out and he was like serious so I mean I said yes. 

I really didn't know what to say. 

R: Do you love him? 

I typed hesitatntly to someone who I once confided with everything. 

A: Well I don't really know , I mean I loved him as a fan before but idk I haven't been dating that long. 

I didn't know how I felt about this either. 

R: Well I'm gonna get going now so see ya. 

A: Wait, do you still like me? 

R:  I just have to get used to not being around, that's all. 

Lie. 

I've never been more in love with her than I am right now. What am I even doing to myself? 

A: Ross, I'll talk to you soon. I miss you all so much! Have fun on tour, rock out and remeber ready set rock! <3

R: Miss you too lyssie! We all do! Talk to you soon and don't worry I'll rock out for you! <3<3

I love her and I WILL miss her! 

I didn't know what to do so I tweeted. 

RossR5: Yes, @alyssaxoxomusic and I are broken up, we are still friends and will remain friends it's just the tour. I wish you the best in your future lyssie! 

I started crying but tried to push the tears away, Ryland and Riker would be checking up on me soon to see what wrong. I cried into my hands but then about a minute or two later I stood up and looked at myslef in the mirror. 

It was the same mirror Alyssa used to take mirror selfies and me or one the boys would photobomb her and she would look all cute because she would be laughing and then I'd kiss her cheek and she'd blush. I miss her so much! 

But now instead of looking in this mirror and seeing a beautiful girl in front of me while I have my arms wrapped around her waist I see me alone in my room with my eyes red and messy hair looking broken. 

Alyssa's POV 

I was in my room alone again. Ariana drove home, I was dating Nash but it didn't feel right. Maybe I just wasn't used to kissing brunnettes, maybe I wasn't used to their type of concert, maybe it was the eye color, maybe it was the way he talks. 

But deep down inside I knew what it was. 

I knew he wasn't Ross. I thought dating Nash would take my mind off Ross but it didn't. Ross texting me didn't help. I looked aorund my room, it was still there. All the memories, even the wall Rocky broke when Riker dropped him off his back and he cracked the wall. We never told my mom and I'm suprised she never noticed. 

All the pictures of Ross and I, all the 6 of us taking on the world. Now what's it gonna be? All 14 of us walking around being weird and clumsy and laughing all the time, making stupid vines and vidoes. 

I decided to check twitter to see whats happening with my friends. I saw what Ross tweeted and started to break down in tears. I cried almost like as much as I did when Ross and I broke up. It never hit me, I couldn't let this happen, I was still in love with him. 

Suddenly my phone vibrated, Nash texted me. "Hey baby xoxo" The text read. I didn't reply but I cried more. I plugged in my phone, turned on the R5 playlist on my phone, of course I have all their songs and listened to it while I cried myself to sleep. 

A/N: Yeah I know this is a short chapter! SorrY I havent posted I was at an R5 concert this weekend omf i started sobbing and I was so close I didn't get VIP but next cincert I am and I saw Mark and Ryland and Brandon and Savanah came so close so did RY and Mark! OMG anyway I actiually like this chapter idek. It's gonna be a long book, but sorry its short i wanted to update asap. ily guys! xoxo remeber read, add to ur library, vote and comment