Overrated (Remade)

Chapter 20

As the day continued Lee still couldn't shake the dream. When he dozed off, he dreamt about it again. The pain was there still, It wouldn't leave. Lee didn't dare say anything to Gaara or Tenten. He'd seem crazy. At this point, it felt as if he was crazy. He was honestly giving up hope on everything. How was he supposed to be this or do that if he couldn't even pull himself together. At this point, he was glad just to be able to get out of bed in the morning. Everything he did hurt, and he felt heavily weighted on his left side. It felt like carrying around extra weight all day. Since the incident, he was forced to remove his weighted vest and anything else he had that was weighted but when he took them off, It felt the same. He just wished he had never had went out that day. Or maybe even night. He was sure half of his belongings were already gone or destroyed beyond repair. 

     Though, He never really had anything of comfort. He had his guitar but he could buy a new one. He had some of his clothes, Those were replaceable. In all honesty, he was just some random guy who truly had no talent. Yeah, sure he could sing but only on good days. He'd sometimes spend days locked up in his house rewriting a verse over and over again. Now he couldn't even think about music or verses without wanting to tear it all to shreds. It made him hate himself. Without the ability to do the few things that were special about him he was nothing. He was just some guy being babysitter by his friends who probably had way more important things to do than watch him waste away. 

   "Lee...? You seem out of it today-" Tenten sighed looking at lee, who was sitting down on the couch staring off into space. 

   He snapped out of his own thoughts. "It is nothing" The enthusiasm he once had was gone. It was gone and he thought for a moment it would never come back. 

   "Do you want me to see if Gaara is free tonight...?" She smiled halfway. Thinking maybe just maybe the mention of Gaara would cheer him up. Ever since Gaara had left this morning Lee seemed even more out of it than when Gaara was here. 

   "Do not bring him back here" Lee mumbled. 

   "Huh?? Lee what is wrong with you. Gaara is our friend, Why are you being rude to him all of a sudden" Tenten dropped the dish she was cleaning and walking in front of lee. Leaning down just a bit to get leveled with him. 

   "NO! DO NOT BRING GAARA BACK INTO THIS PLACE JUST SO HE CAN SPEND ANOTHER HOUR WATCHING BE WASTE AWAY," Lee yelled at her. Immediately regretting his words. "I am sorry Tenten- I did not mean to yell" 

Tenten didn't even know what to say. She was shocked she had gotten yelled at but even more shocked that Lee had not wanted Gaara to come. The Lee she knew would not skip a chance to have Gaara over. 

  "I just do not know what to do anymore! It seems like everything I do is just so meaningless and- I do not want to alarm you but I sometimes wish that whatever surgery I had, failed..."

  "Lee..?" 

  "I am sorry I should not have even said anything-" Lee sighed looking at the ceiling. 

  "Lee...I- I had no idea-..." Tenten reached out to Lee but hesitated. Lee was already upset and she didn't want to upset him anymore. He seemed fragile at the moment. 

  "It is alright...I will be fine as soon as my leg heals" 

  "I don't think that's how it works Lee....you need help"

   "Help...? I do not think I need that Tenten. This is like an Injury, right? So it will leave with time."

Tenten felt so bad. How was she supposed to tell lee without reaching out he would never get better. Bottling it all up inside, keeping to himself, would make it worse. In some ways he was right, it would heal like a wound. Only the outside though. Just because something heals on the outside doesn't mean that on the inside it's fixed.  

   "Yes, you do! Do you think That Neji got better just because he kept it inside!" 

   "well of course not! We were there for him!" Lee looked up at Tenten in the eyes. 

   "Well, then why can't you apply that to yourself?" 

The silence was loud. The moment before a loud crash. The moment before a jumpscare in a horror movie. 

   " Because Neji and I are not the same"