Levi Is So Harsh {leviHan}

TWENTY-SIX

(A/N) I don't know if this needs a trigger warning but mature themes about abortion ahead if it doesn't bother you then ignore this message

Hanjis POV

After finding out about my pregnancy me and Levi returned to my room in silence....he didn't say anything to me and I just stayed quiet....I was feeling many emotions at once.

When we were in my room I decided to talk about the elephant in the room.....

"Levi...."

"Yeah"

"What are we going to do?"

He looked at me "it's your decision not mine...."

I looked down....I already had an answer to the question....

"Levi I think I might....get an abortion...."

He looked at me with shock in his eyes....

"I'm sorry levi....it's just that I don't know if I can take care of our child properly....especially now....with being commander and dealing with a new enemy at the same time.... as much as I want this child....it's not exactly the best idea...."

He looked down and sighed "it doesn't matter...."

"Eh-"

"If that's your decision then I can't do anything about it so therefore the kid doesn't matter to me anymore"

I was shocked....why would he say that? "Why....would you say-"

"Because I'm just telling the truth hanji....obviously you don't care so why should I too"

"What do you mean I don't care?, of course I ca-"

"Do you though...do you really"

"Levi....."

"If you cared you would give the child a chance instead of killing it" he said coldly.

I started to grow angry "dont make me sound like the bad guy here...."

"Who else would be the bad guy?"

"Why the hell are you acting like this?"

"I don't know what you mean hanji I'm perfectly fine"

"Bull fucking shit your fine"

He glared at me "I'm fine...."

"You never act like this...."

"I am only acting like this because your going to kill our child"

"Don't make it sound like I want to!"

"Well it sure sounds like you do!"

We started yelling at each other....

"I'm just being rational Levi why don't you think about it for one fucking second!"

"Rational my ass!, tell me what are so worried about then"

"I already did tell you dumbass!"

"That wasn't a good enough answer"

"What!?, your acting like a complete dickhead you know that!"

"SHUT UP!" He grabbed me by the collar.

"Tell me hanji why don't you want the kid!?"

"I already told you...."

"Was that really it?" He said still with a angry voice.

"No...."

"Then tell me".

I stayed quiet....tears started forming up as I gritted my teeth trying to hold them back.

"ANSWER!"

"BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO FAIL AS A MOTHER! YOU HAPPY NOW!"

He drops me and I shove him out of my way as I walk to my bed glaring at him.

He looks down and tchs "damn it..."

"Leave...just fucking leave Levi"

He looks at me then at the door and starts leaving....and decided to say something that made me snap.

"Petra would have kept it...."

I clenched my fists "what the fuck did you say?"

"You heard me"

"Oh yeah....then why don't you go join her in her grave" I regret that....

He yelled and charged at me tackling me. Even if I did keep this child whatever Levi's doing isn't going to keep it safe.....

He was on top of me holding his fist about to punch me....

I just looked at him with tears in my eyes....his face starts to calm down and he looks at me with a shocked impression..... he drops his hand to his sides and gets off me....I glanced at him and he had tears....

"What the hell is wrong with me....I'm a monster...." he stood up and left the room.

I didn't know what to do....my heart was racing from what just happened so I just laid on the ground trying to calm myself down....

Levi's POV

I returned to my room and closed my door locking it....I slammed my fists into the wall....why the hell did I do that to her....why did I say those things.....

I fell to the ground with my hands in my hair....hanji doesn't deserve me....not after what I just did to her....how could I? I'm the one being unrational here.....I'm putting the blame all on her when it's mostly my fault....I'm the one who got her pregnant in the first place....

DAMN IT! I slammed my fists into the wall again....I hate myself so much right now....how could I ever compare he to Petra....if Petra was here she would slap the shit out of me knowing I said those things to hanji....

if Isabel was here....I don't think I would be standing for a while....after her and farlen would give me a real beating....

I sighed and sat in my chair with my hand over my head...I'm a terrible husband I should have just supported her answer Instead of making it worse for her....

I heard someone knock on my door "go away!"

"Open it levi I need to talk to you" I heard Lilly's voice...

I got up and unlocked the door to see Lilly with a stern expression.

"If your going to chew me out go the fuck away"

She shook her head "no but I did want to walk to you" she held up some tea.

I let her in and she sat on my bed holding a glass of tea. I sat across from her taking the other tea she had with her.

"Now....what happened between you and hanji...."

I sighed "I said shit I shouldn't have said to her and nearly punched her.....I also lifted her off the ground by her collar in anger....because she wanted to get an abortion....because she's pregnant with our kid"

Lilly's eyes widened and she nodded "did you regret your actions?...."

I nod "I would do anything to take them back....i regret ever second of our conversation of the way I acted to her....she doesn't deserve me"

Lilly sighed "well as long as you regretted your actions you will be fine....and you two deserve each other, so you can't let this fight get between y'all.... fights aren't to tear each other apart forever but to learn from your mistakes and heal together no matter how bad they are...., just keep that in mind and whenever your ready go make up to her....because she needs you more than anyone in this situation....after all you are her husband..."

I was surprised that I was taking advice from a brat younger than me.....but she was right and I nodded in response.

She stood up "well I'm going to talk to her now and help this situation but I can only do so much so when your ready go talk to her....ok"

I nod "ok...and thank you"

She smiles and leaves my room closing the door behind her....I just sighed and continued drinking my tea....

I hope you forgive me hanji....