Levi Is So Harsh {leviHan}

TWENTY- EIGHT

Hanjis POV

After seeing the doctor he gave me a pill (guys idk how abortion works so I'm winging it) I stared at the pill....the doc said it wouldn't affect future pregnancies....but still the thought is still haunting me....

"Are you gonna take it?"

I looked up to see Eren....I haven't talked to him in ages.

I nod "yeah....but it still scary to think about...."

He sighs "well don't over think it hanji....the more you over think it the worse it's gonna be"

I nod he has a point...."what are you doing here anyway Eren?"

He shrugged "to check in on a old friend I guess"

I smiled "it's been awhile hasn't it...."

He nods then we start walking together.

"A lot has changed hanji I know being commander hasn't been easy has it?"

I shook my head "everything is so different and everything you told us it's just alot to take in...."

He sighs "tell me about it....one day we were fighting titans the next we are fighting soldiers..."

I nod "remember our experiments" I hit his shoulder with my elbow playfully.

He rubbed his neck "yeah when you would freak out every second about me shifting" he let out a small chuckle.

I laugh slightly "I remember those good days....now everything seems so.... depressing"

He nods "yeah after retaking shiganshina and loosing everyone....everyone who survived have been scarred...."

I look at him he was already starting to grow taller than me "and you Eren you said you have memories right?"

He nods "from my father I do"

"It must be hard....to have so many memories not really understanding it...."

He sighs "yeah....it's been hard....but we must keep moving forward to defeat out enemy right?"

I nod "I guess so"

We keep walking it's been out first conversation in awhile....

"I heard what captain did to you...." Eren said with a little venom in his words.

I shrug "I rather not think about it honestly"

Eren sighs "if anything happens between you guys like that again just call for me and I'll deal with him"

I laugh slightly "Eren no offense but you don't really have a clean record of beating Levi in a fight....remember"

He rolled his eyes "Yeah whatever.....remember when you cleaned my wounds....even though I could have healed"

I nod "you sure have changed...but Levi is still levi a little grump...who tends to take things to far...."

Eren looked at me "well it doesn't give him the right to hurt you or say those harsh things"

"Thanks....but I would pay to see you and Levi go at it again but you may get your ass handed to..."

"Hanji!" Eren laughed shaking his head.

"What?" I threw my hands in the air.

Eren sighs annoyed "well I've gotten stronger the past year"

I hit his shoulder "yeah you have and I'm proud"

He smiles slightly, me and Eren have a brother and sister relationship ever since we met it's always been like that.

When I noticed he began changing becoming more depressed and not as energetic....it hurt to see him like this.

"Hanji..... no matter what happens we will always be friends right?"

I smile "ofcoarse silly why wouldn't we be?"

He chuckles "no reason just saying...."

I smile we kept talking like we always have, it was nice...it helped me forget about my pregnancy and Levi for just a little bit.

"Eren I noticed you are growing out your hair?"

He chuckles and picks up a strand "yeah I'm trying a new look for once what do you think?"

I smile "looks good on you I like it"

(A/N I'm crying....)

He nods "yeah I plan on to keep growing it out"

"Well I like it so I say go for it"

Our conversation reached its end....when we ran into Levi....

"Hanji..." He said gloomily.

I sighed "what..."

"Can we please talk...."

I nodded slowly....then Eren sighed.

"Well I'll see you around hanji....it was nice talking to you again"

I nod "likewise Eren"

He walks up to Levi and places his hand on Levis Shoulder

"Captain....don't you dare hurt her again...." I heard him say coldly to Levi.

Levi nodded "I won't..."

Eren removed his hand and left.....

Levi looked at me then looked down.... I sighed.

"Well follow me we're going to my room"

He nods and I lead him to my room....I close the door and he sits on the bed while I sit in a chair across from him....

He stayed quiet then I broke the awkward silence.

"What did you wanna talk about Levi...."

He sighed "I'm sorry...."

At the moment I didn't feel much remorse from him....all that filled my mind was anger and hatred....

I sighed "is that it?"

He shook his head and looked up at me I can see the stained tear marks and the sorrowness in his grey eyes blue eyes....

"Then what else is there levi"

"I'm sorry I was cruel to you....I shouldn't have ever lashed out at like that....if anyone is to blame about the situation we are in right now is me....I said awful shit that can never be taken back...I compared you to someone who if they were here right now would have beat me to a crisp....you don't have to keep the child hanji and you certainly won't hear any judgement stuff from me ever again...I know I said things that made you stress over the child even more and....I'm sorry...I was being a terrible husband....no....I was being the worst husband to ever walk this planet.... I don't deserve you and you know that....you were only doing what was right In the situation....I was being the unfair one....I was acting like a spoiled brat and there is no excuse to why I acted like I did....I can never be forgiven....and I'm sorry...." he started crying.... "Hanji I understand if you don't want to see my face ever again....it's ok....because you have every right to hate me and never want to talk to me again...I deserve it....so it's only right for you to know I'm sorry and for that I will be leaving now so you don't have to see me ever again....I blew my second chance with you....I don't deserve another...."

He finished talking and left the room....I didn't know what to say honestly....many emotions are flowing through my mind....

I looked at the pill the doctor gave me and grabbed some water....I chugged some water and took the pill....that was the end of that....

I kept thinking about what levi said....and I came up with one conclusion....a sad conclusion......maybe we just need....

A break....

(A/N, I just noticed how depressing I made this fanfic....sorry people but writing that eren and hanji moment just made me freakin cry 💀 well I'll post soon....stay safe everyone