High school Sweethearts - Niragi

Chapter 11: in his arms, where I feel the safest

-> Two months later

On the floor,

In my bedroom,

In his lap,

Lips tangled in each other,

Making out,

Shirts fully unbuttoned,

Our bodies pressing against each other, holding each other close, as if the minute one would pull away, they would be taken away to never be seen again. The only thing on my mind is Niragi. He made me feel good. His touches, hugs, kisses, I became addicted to them. As if he's a drug that my mind and body cannot bear to live without. The thought of having to leave him behind tears me apart. He is the only person that has ever succeeded to make me feel something. Emotions that I learned to live with, because of him, won't they become useless when I leave? I still haven't told him yet, and graduation is already coming up in two weeks. I feel hopeless but It's something I can't avoid anymore. I have to tell him.

I took my lips of his, resting my forehead on his forehead, both of us heavily panting, letting out a chuckle. Looking each other in the eyes, the only emotion showing inside them is love.

-"Why'd you pull away? I thought we we're doing good", he said jokingly.

I immediately connected my lips with him again as I could not resist the desire for him. His hands travelled all over my body, making me fall back in the pit of lust and crave, created by him. His lips traveled down to my jawline, followed by my neck, making me let out a soft moan by the feeling of pleasure, my mind blank, not thinking any thoughts. The Idea of telling him popped back up inside my head shortly after.

"Niragi.. I... have still have to tell you something...", I tried to get out as his neck kisses almost made it impossible to talk properly as I felt myself almost melting inside his arms. He stopped, and looked back up at me.

-"What is it that you're so eager to tell me about?", he responded pantingly. I looked at his precious face, studying every detail, as I felt my mood suddenly going down. I got off his lap and sat on the floor next to him, feeling tears forming in my eyes. –"Y/N what's the matter?".

I turned my head to face him again. "I'm moving", A tear softly started to roll over my cheek. The confusion in his face noticeably drifted away as a non-readable emotion was left on his face.

-"What.. what do you mean?".

"My parents.. They want me to study abroad. They think 'that's what's best for me'. I can't go against it or else I won't even be able to study either way."

He was quiet for a while, probably trying to process what I just said.

-"When are you leaving?", he said in a gloomy tone.

"After graduation. I'm sorry I haven't told you earlier Niragi. I.. I just couldn't". I caressed his cheek with my fingers.

-"Does this mean we're breaking up?", he asked, his voice cracking, as the sadness almost fully took over.

His question felt as a dagger in the heart. I haven't looked at it in that way. I couldn't see myself breaking up with him. I didn't want to.

"I didn't look at it in that way yet. Of course I wouldn't want that, but the distance, and time difference, it will probably make it extra hard on us". Saying these words hurt. And I could see it had hurt him very hard as well. Those are not the words I wanted to say, but It's the only truth.

"I will come back for you, I promise. Will you wait for me?", I said holding his face in my hand. He nodded in response as a tear left his eye. "Niragi. I know we don't have much time left, but can I at least spend the remaining time with you?", I said looking up at him hopefully.

We laid on my bed. In his embrace, my head on his chest, his hand stroking my hair. I wanted to stay like that forever, in that moment right there and then, in his arms, where I felt the safest.

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Time skip: 2 weeks later

Niragi pov

High school finally come to an end. The graduation ceremony class party ended and I was helping cleaning everything up. Y/N already left, as their flight was scheduled short after the ceremony. It was awful, having to say goodbye, saying goodbye to the person I loved the most. Yes, I loved her, and now I have to leave her behind. I wished I could hold her in my arms longer, but it seems like destiny had to pull us apart.

We all finished up cleaning the class room and were allowed to leave. I left alone, as I was in no mood to even engage in other friendships at the moment. I walked up to the rooftop one more time, and sat at our little bench for a moment, remembering the conversations we had, the way she laughed at me while talking, the moment I kissed her back. It's all past tense now. I went back downstairs in order to leave the building. I stepped outside and stopped for a moment, looking back at the building once more, before walking away. It's over. It's all over.

I took a different way home this time, so I had more time to think about past memories, to think about her, to think about what I am going to do next with my life. How am I going to survive now, with the only source of happiness leaving my life?

I was walking further, and reached the alley she took me, the first time she stepped in. I could still feel it as it was yesterday.

-"Ya! Look who we have here!", it sounded in the background as I heard footsteps coming up from behind me. I immediately recognized the voice, it was him.

I turned around to face the voice, and saw him standing behind me, with two other of his friends.

"What's your problem?", I responded, feeling anger slightly building up inside me.

-"Oh are we getting bold now?", he sounded surprised. "You", he poked me hard making me take a step back, "You little fucker, are my problem".

--"Thanks to you, we couldn't graduate", another one of them said, as they all tried to corner me.

"It's your own fault, your actions have consequences, maybe should've thought about that before being such assholes", I snapped back, and immediately turned around to walk away. Right then I was forcefully turned around by Daichi, and felt his fist in my face at a high force, making me fall to the ground. I groaned in pain as I grabbed my bleeding nose, as they started to laugh at me.

"I mean if you just let them do their thing they'll never stop harassing you"

"Confidence Niragi! You gotta have confidence!"

Her voice popped up in my head. All pain left my face, and the only emotion I felt was rage, as I calmly stood up.

-"Oh! You're getting up already?". He stepped closer to me. –"What are you gonna do huh Niragi?", he tried to tease, but I quickly turned around and punched his face as hard as I could, with all the anger that I felt inside. He fell back hard, his friends standing there in full disbelief.

"Fuck you", I told him, blood still traveling from my nose to my lips, then spitting on him, as he laid there groaning in pain, before walking away unconcernedly.