Biology||Josh Richards

5.5

Ahh 100k!!! Are you kidding? Be prepared for this chapter, some tears might be shred.

He stayed the night last night. My father must have knocked out early but then again, I don't see my father as often as one usually would.

Now, it was five in the morning. The sun was barely creeping over the horizon, a cold breeze blowing through the early morning air. We were standing outside in front of his car, holding each other in a meaningful embrace, his arms around my neck and mine around his torso.

"Stay safe, baby." He whispers into my ear, "and call- or at least text every day, okay?"

I smile against his shoulder, "Okay."

Come on, Savannah. Say the damn words.

"I..." I pause taking a deep breath, "I'm going to miss you."

I mentally slap myself for not saying the very sentence I need to.

He pulls his head back to look me in the eye, "well, Sav, I'm gonna miss you too."

I lean up onto the balls of my feet and bring him into a kiss. Oh how I wish this moment could last forever, and I hope he feels the same way.

My eyes stay fluttered shut even after he leans away from me, ending the slight affection.

"What time is your flight?" He asks simply. I finally reopen my eyes to meet his but his under-eye bags are once again noticeable, it makes me wonder how much sleep he genuinely got after our fight.

Tears leak from my waterlines and fall past my cheeks that had been pale from the cold. "Josh, I'm so sorry." 

At my words, his arms hug me tighter than I've ever been held in my entire life. I have no right to cry right now.

"Savannah..."

"I shouldn't even be the one crying either, I have no right. I'm the one who kept this whole thing from you, not vice-versa. Now I have to trouble you by going to the opposite side of the world until even after your god damn birthday and oh, did I forget to mention the fact that I'm in love with you? And fuck me, I don't want to leave you. Not right now." The droplets come out like streams of waterfalls as I try to breathe. "Oh my god, and now I'm standing here, about to leave, and you're being so incredibly good to me and I'm dropping all of these reckless bombs on you, I can't even help myself about it anymore."

All he does is stand there, utterly shocked: his lips parted, his eyebrows raised. His hands, that were recently placed on my shoulders, are now fallen to the sides of his body, dangling helplessly.

"When I am around you, I feel as though I can not leave you, ever. When I look at you, I don't see a person who posts videos for follows or the mental attention from others, I see the boy who is always there for me and if you aren't physically there, you'll make yourself exactly that. I see the boy who all he does is bring me flower petals built from his affection that make up a beautiful rose." I stare at him, wanting him to say at least something. "Josh-"

He grabs my damp cheeks to bring my face to his, his lips molding with mine in an enduring affection. My stomach erupts entirely and the weight that's been held on my back for the last few days is lifted in bliss.

He pulls away once again, almost whimpering. "I love you, Sav."

I see his eyes become glossier by the second and all I can physically do is smile as brightly as I can.

"Gosh, it sounds pathetic compared to the speech you just gave me, but it's true, I love you. No matter what I will always physically be there." He explains, I laugh out sniffles until I feel my phone vibrating in the pocket of my sweatshirt.

I wipe my nose and take it out to check the caller ID. "It's my mom,"

"I must have to get going then." His voice is now raspier, probably from the crying.

Nodding, I collide with him in an embrace and place a gentle kiss to his throat then pull away.

"I guess I'll see you in a... month."

I sniff, "yeah..."

He sends me a small grin, turns around, opens his driver-side door, and sits inside while turning on the ignition. He then shuts the door and sits there for a second to stare at his lap.

I can see his side features through the window. His crooked nose, his chin and cheekbones are built flawlessly, you can see a faint scar on the edge of his jawline. I've never noticed it before, I wonder what it's from.

He pulls his gear stick out of park and into drive mode before pressing the gas pedal, acceding forward.

Not even a proper goodbye?

Just as the thought bursts, I see him stop halfway down the street before the car pulls back rapidly towards me. He stops and gets out with a slam of the door.

He stalks right up in front of me and gives me one last, hard kiss.

He leans away and smiles a toothy smile, "I love you, Savannah Williams."

"And I love you, Josh Richards. Don't forget about me while I'm gone." I tell him, out of sincerity.

"You're telling me? Switch that around missy." He places a kiss to the top of my nose.

"It's too early."

"I agree, I have to get home though before my mom freaks out and you have a flight to get on in a couple hours but trust me, if I could stay, I would without a doubt."

I nod, hugging him on last time. "I packed one of your hoodies."

"I believe you. Okay, I really gotta go now."

I pout at him, "fine,"

"Goodbye, Sav."

"Goodbye, Josh."

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How about that love confession huh? I'm pretty proud of myself right about now for it.