Should I open the door..I could, but it won't change anything, as I said, I'm done with everything. I slowly stood up and walked to the door to open it. Kian didn't say anything, his mouth dropped when he saw the pills, he bit is lip and took my hand. ''...please, don't..'' He started trembling. I just noticed his black eye. ''What happened?''
''Maddie showed me the text, panic, I ran to your house and your parents didn't want to let me in but I just ran inside and I called you my girlfriend and your dad basically...'' No.. why can't he just do something about his anger issues ugh. ''Sorry.''
Kian smiled a little. ''Anything for you.'' I wanted to smile but I couldn't.. nothing will change, no one would believe me, I need to go. I took a deep breath and pulled my hand back. ''I'm sorry but I have to, I think it's better if you leave now.'' Kian closed his eyes and didn't say anything, he was about to burst out and threw a glass that was on the sink on the ground. ''ELLA DON'T DO IT I'M BEGGING YOU.'' Seeing him so sad and angry made me even cry harder. ''I am so sorry but it will be better for everyone, even you, trust me...'' There was a silence for a minute but then Kian's mouth started moving slowly. He didn't talk.. ''I’ve separated my life from truth, this cold air taste real, I’ve stumbled back, I’m back. My lamp is almost burned, reminds me of your eyes, when you calmly said, we’ve no more space, for all your tired and dirty past, and I believe it all to be true, beyond this time, you’ll pull through..'' He was singing and he sounded like an angel, his voice was pure perfection, I've ever known that before. I actually smiled a little bit. Maybe there was another option, leaving London. But I can't do that I mean I have school and my parents will never let me live on my own. Don't even begin about living with Kian. I sighed and looked deeply in his eyes. ''We.. need to leave....'' He nodded.
''You can stay at my place, my mom would be totally cool with that.'' I smiled. ''My parents won't.''
''What do you mean.. they went to work after I walked upstairs.. I mean they won't notice it.''
''Thanks.'' I said sarcastically. ''Oh no not in that way, I mean.. let's be honest, do you really think they would care.'' Now I finally realized that he was speaking the truth, I was almost dying and they were doing nothing.. I sighed. ''Okay... but Maddie is there.''
''She was crying, okay, and she was in panic, make a new start, okay?'' I didn't know if should do that I mean, I can't just forgive her, what ever... I cared more about my other friends, that hated me, now they probably hate me more after those fake pictures of me. ''But what about my friends, and everyone at school thinks I'm a slut.''
''Don't worry, Maddie promised to text Alfie, Zoe, Finn, Jack, Marcus and Sam.. and we will find a way to tell it at everyone else, just promise me, that you won't do that again.. I'm really worried now..'' I gave him a kiss on his cheek and smiled, I couldn't promise it so... ''Maybe they already texted you, you'll feel a lot better, I guess.'' I bit my lip.''I can't, I threw my phone... in the toilet.'' He laughed, it made me so happy to see him laughing right now. ''I'll get you a new one.''
''You don't have to!'' I protested. ''Did I just see a smile.. and I don't care I am buying you a new phone, now pack your stuff I'll help you.'' Kian smiled and we walked to my room. I didn't have many important stuff to be honest, I just packed my macbook and the new presents I got, and my wallet.
''That's it? Are you going to be naked for the rest of your life.. it doesn't bother me but..'' Kian smirked and I started laughing, I can't believe he actually made my day. I mean after all what happened, I was laughing.. I quickly packed all my shoes and some clothes. ''Now I'm ready and are you sure your mom is okay with the fact that I'm staying at your place?'' He nodded. ''Yes of course, she saw me and Maddie in panic so...'' ''You haven't told her right?!''
''No, I haven't.''
I smiled. ''We should go now, maybe they come back because they forgot something you never know..'' We walked downstairs and we were holding hands, I don't know, were we back together now.. probably, I guess. We were walking to his house when he suddenly asked something. ''Can I ask you something?''
''Yeah sure.'' He was serious again. ''Ehm.. why did you kiss Finn?''
I sighed. ''I.. I just, I didn't want him to be with Maddie, I never liked Maddie and nobody believed me except Jack, and I just didn't want them to be together and yeah...'' I know that's not the only reason, but I didn't want to mess things up again. He smiled. ''Oh, but you were right, sorry for not believing you, but she's staying here for a semester, we can't ignore her that long.''
''Why not?''
''Come on Ella, she'll change, promise.''
I sighed.
We finally arrived and his mom was at work, Maddie was there and she was actually crying.. what the... she ran to me and gave me a hug. ''I'm sorry, I never wanted to do that I'm stupid, you don't have to forgive me..'' Well, I didn't want to forgive her anyways but I just smiled I mean she cried and I'm not that bad.. maybe. ''I'll help you unpacking, and I texted your friends and...'' she was acting like I was going to attack her or something, I laughed. ''It's okay.''
''No it's not okay, what could I do for you, please just say something.''
''Tell the truth, why did you do this to me?''
She took a deep breath. ''I can't tell you, not now, maybe later..''
''Hit me up when you are able to tell it then.''
''I will.'' she smiled.
Kian was already upstairs, unpacking my stuff, oops.. I should go help him, well actually he was helping me, what ever. I walked upstairs and saw him doing nothing, he was sitting on his bed, crying.
''What's up?'' I sat next to him.
''I'm still shocked and worried and.. I'm sorry.''
I gave him a hug. ''I'm worried too..''
