//one week later, school starts again.
BEEP BEEP BEEP - I wanted to throw my alarm out of the window. I was already late, fuck you snooze, fuck you. I quickly put some pants and a shirt on. I brushed my teeth and put some make up on. I wasn't really hungry so I walked to the bus stop. I used to go to school with Alfie but I don't think that's a great plan. I didn't know if the bus already left, I mean nobody was here, only me. I checked my phone to see what time it is.. fuck. I'm ten minutes late, now I have to walk to school and be late in class, great. Could it be worse? Yes because it slowly started raining..
I opened the door while being soaking wet, the hallways were empty and all the classes started like 20 minutes ago. I think I have maths now.. with Alfie, sigh. I walked to my class and opened the door.
''Mrs. Lewis, you are late.''
I apologized. ''I'm sorry miss.'' and sat down on a chair in the back, I used to sit next to Alfie but he was sitting next to someone else.
I didn't really pay attention, my stomach started making weird noises and everyone started staring at me... why? ugh.
Lunch break was even worse even though my stomach stopped making stupid noises. I was such a loner, until a couple guys stopped by my table where I was sitting alone. They started laughing at me. ''Nice pictures... Ella, right?'' A tall guy with dark brown hair and blue eyes said while his friends were laughing. What was he talking about.. I just frowned and continued my lunch. Then some random girls started staring at me while whispering, how obvious. I don't know what they were saying, whatever, I stared back and smiled sarcastically. I wanted to say something to them but I was too shy and awkward, ugh. The only thing that came out of my mouth was ''What?''
One of the girls smirked. ''Slut.'' They cringed. What the fuck, what have I done. It seems like I don't do anything wrong at all and people just randomly start hating me for no reason. I bit my lip and was kinda scared, what if something happened with me and I didn't know about it.. should I skip class and go home to find out? Maybe.. probably...yes. I went to my locker and put my jacket back on. I walked outside and went back home with the bus. I don't know if I should be worried I mean it's just college, it's the worst place ever and everyone hates each other at my school.
I opened the door and my parents were sitting in the living room, full of anger.
''Hi..'' I said. They didn't reply, my dad stood up and started yelling at me. ''YOU ARE WORTHLESS AND STUPID.'' What was happening... I was so confused, I didn't have too much time to think about that, before I knew it I felt his fist touching my head. He started punching me everywhere it was possible... I've never seen him this angry before. Don't cry Ella, don't cry.... I tried to stay strong but my eyes were becoming red and wet and they started burning like hell. I thought it couldn't get worse until my mom showed me a picture she printed out. My mouth dropped.. this wasn't me. It was a nude, with my face on it. It was fake! Someone photoshopped my fucking face on a naked body.... I wish I could scream from a balcony that it was fake and photoshopped and that everyone could hear me, but no one would believe me.. it looked so real, but it wasn't me, I started crying even harder and ran upstairs. I locked myself in the bathroom, someone was trying to ruin my life and it worked. It happened. And I think I deserve it. I had the best boyfriend ever, I messed up.. I had lovely friends, I messed up.. My grades were pretty well but lately I'm already happy with a C or D. My parents never really liked me tho, and now they hate me for something I never did. I am a failure, nobody likes me anymore and my dad was right, I am worthless and stupid. I am a shitty friend, my personality sucks, don't even let me begin about my looks, they probably just said nice things to make me feel better.. and I don't get it, no one would do something like this only because they're in love with someone.. maybe I'm just an easy target. She, Maddie, made me feel like shit and I'm actually believing all this bullshit, I am so done with everyone and everything. What's the point of continuing, huh?
I took a deep breath and couldn't stop crying, was the last thing I was going to do send a text to the person I hate the most? Maybe.
- I know it was you, are you doing this only because you like Kian, why do you hate me? congrats, you ruined my life and now you're too late to explain why. -
I've sent the text and trembled. I threw my phone away and cried even harder. I was opening the bathroom cabinet in panic. I found a box with paracetamol. I took a deep breath, again. Was this the right thing to do... yes. I was still crying in silence, my parents didn't even notice a thing, they wouldn't even care. This is the right thing to do, just do it, overdose, stop trembling. I closed my eyes and cried, was this enough.. I hope so.
''OPEN THE DOOR.'' Someone knocked very hard on the door.. I didn't want to open it but it wasn't my mom or dad.. ''ELLA PLEASE.'' It was Kian.
