I couldn't believe it, this can't be true, please tell me they're lying.. I took a deep breath and tried not to cry but I couldn't stop myself. They can't just leave, I love them, they are one of my best friends.. Jack is the best friend ever and Finn.. Finn is just Finn, I love him, I really do but I just don't know, and I don't think this was the reason he was freaking out.. I mean Jack told me he didn't know why he was in panic and he asked me, I want to ask it but I don't think this is the right time, I'm already busy crying a fucking river. I felt a warm hand on my back. ''Don't worry.. things will work out between us and you have Kian, he will take care of you..'' I looked up and saw Jack's smile but he was worried and sad. I turned to Finn, I should ask him why he was so worried last night right now.
''Why were you so worried last night?''
He looked deeply in my eyes for like 5 seconds and then looked back to Jack, who nodded.
He took a deep breath and finally was about to tell me the truth. ''Well, I know Maddie better than you might think.''
''So?'' I was still confused.
''Eh.. everything was planned.. except for the last thing you wanted to do.. that's why I freaked out.''
''Wanting to do what..'' Jack asked a bit shocked, I couldn't tell him now, it would make it even worse. ''Nothing.. but what do you mean with 'everything was planned.' huh?''
''I.. well we talked before and Maddie asked me more questions and she got to know how I felt about you and eh I got to know how she felt about Kian and eh yeah we basically got some ideas and I'm really sorry.. but we planned eh our kiss and Kian and Maddie's kiss.. if that makes sense, I'm really sorry Ella, I'm such a horrible friend ugh.''
I can't believe he actually told me the truth, but I don't get it.. how could our kiss be planned, that can't be true, I mean I kissed him and the other time he told me that he didn't want to ruin our relationship so we didn't even kiss.. But I bet he knows more about Maddie, if she really did all of this just because she's jealous, she's just fucking mental.
''But that's not true, you didn't want to kiss me and..'' Before I could finish my sentence he already gave me the answer. ''It's because I never did, it wasn't planned, well it actually was but I didn't want to and I just called her after we really kissed, not planned..''
I don't know how I should feel about this, I'm not mad at all.. is that weird? I believe Finn, I'm pretty sure he's speaking the truth and he didn't do anything else, I guess.
''What about Maddie? why did she do all this?'' I asked
''Because, you remind her of a girl that bullied her in the past.''
''That's not an excuse to do all of this to me!'' I protested, a bit angry.
''I know, but please believe me when I say I didn't know about the other stuff.. I only told her about the kiss and when me and Maddie were pretending to be a couple and stuff.. nothing else.''
I actually forgot Jack was still sitting next to me, he looked so confused and shocked.
I was actually glad at the moment, because things made sense.. but it won't change the fact that they're moving and why Kian is acting so weird lately.. maybe Finn knows. ''Eh, do you know why Kian is acting really weird lately?''
''She said she won't give up.''
Oh god, this means she'll continue ruining my life even after she said sorry, okay then, but if this is true.. why can't I just leave everyone, like Jack and Finn, no one would notice it, well they probably would but it's better for me and for them. Why can't I just move to Australia or something, just with Kian, and my other friends of course, but not Maddie. I don't even know how I'm going to survive it for a whole semester living in the same house, wait, I won't. But I can't go back to my own house, that's just stupid.. maybe I should just try to work things out.
I sighed and heard the door opening, great..
''Hey!'' Maddie said a bit overexcited, I just smiled back, Kian still looked kinda annoyed tho.. I really want to ask him why but that will probably annoy him even more.
''Eh, Ella? Could you help me with something.. in my room?'' Kian bit his lip
I nodded and went upstairs while Jack and Finn were still in the living room, I don't think they mind.
a/n: i'm sorry this is so short and shitty (again) but i have testweek and i should be studying right now so that's why it's so short
