The last couple days were pretty cool, there was no drama at all. Even Maddie was being nice to me, but I don't really know why. I actually hung out Kian, Maddie and Finn last night, it was pretty fun except Maddie was still flirting with Kian and even with Finn. I still don't like her but I don't wanna cause any drama. I was wearing a cozy Christmas jumper and turned my laptop on. I logged into facebook and logged out after 5 seconds, I don't really like it to be honest. I was happy at the moment, it felt weird. Like there is always something that bothers you but at this point nothing bothered me. It feels good, but it's still weird. I was staring at my laptop and doing nothing, just thinking about stuff that isn't important, like this. I will never understand why I have such good friends, like I'm just an ordinary girl that sits on her computer all day. The only people I talk to are my friends, like I don't really care about what other people think of me. Wait, I actually do. I care too much, I just act like I don't care about anything but I do, too much. Even yesterday, yes I forgave Kian and Maddie, but she was still flirting with him. The weirdest part was that I got more annoyed when she started flirting with Finn. I don't know how I should explain it, I mean he's just a friend but I know how he feels about me and sometimes I just want to.. I don't know. I sighed and looked outside the window.
I made myself a cup tea and called Alfie.
I heard familiar voices on the background. ''Hello?''
''Hey it's Ella.''
''Hey what's up?''
''Not much, just chilling what about you?'' I said smiling even though he couldn't see me, most of the times I just call people with no face expression.
''I'm with Zoe and Marcus.''
''Hey what about me?!'' I laughed
''Well I didn't know you still wanted to hang out with us'' He sounded a bit annoyed or sad I can't really tell.
''Erm, what are you talking about?'' I said confused
''You only hang out with your friends from California.''
''Friends? Only Kian, Maddie is not my friend and Finn never lived in California.''
''You know what I mean, you called her a skank and now you are hanging out with her and Kian every day, sometimes with Finn but most of the times it's just you Kian and Maddie, you didn't answer my texts or phone calls, we haven't talk for a week Ella..''
''I'm sorry I hang out with them because I don't want to cause any drama, but apparently I even cause drama when I do nothing. Yay.'' I said sarcastically. A few minutes ago I was the happiest girl alive but right now i feel like shit again.
''Sorry, I didn't want to sound mean or something, you can still come if you want.''
I sighed. ''No thanks, ehm bye, I guess.''
''Bye.''
I hang up and stared at the ground, it's funny how a person can change your mood so quickly, even your best friends can make you feel like shit.
I left my tea on the table and put my shoes on and went outside. I was walking and the streets were empty, maybe I could go to Kian, but then I would feel even worse because I just got told I leave my other friends for him. Maybe I could go to Finn.. I texted Finn.
-can I come over? x -
-of course xx -
-yay xx -
I smiled and went to their house, I knocked on the door and waited till Finn opened the door.
''Come in.'' He smiled.
I walked inside and saw all the pretty decorations. ''Wow, your house looks beautiful.''
''Ah thank you, would you like anything to drink?'' He laughed. ''No thanks.''
His phone buzzed and he started smiling at his phone. ''She doesn't stop texting me.''
I smirked.''Oooh, who is the lucky one?'' He laughed. ''Ehm..''
''Who?! Come on...'' I laughed. ''Well I don't like her okay she just says cute things to me, it makes me feel a lot better after all the.. eh you know.'' He said awkwardly.
''Okay who cares just say her name.''
He sighed. ''Don't be mad? promise..'' I was a little bit confused. ''Ehm, okay?''
''It's Maddie.''
What, did he just say that.. or am I dreaming, please tell me that I'm dreaming right now. What the fuck is happening, I was so confused. I wanted to cry but that would be weird I mean Kian is my boyfriend but it's weird, ugh.
''Oh.'' I smiled and acted like I was happy for him.
He laughed. ''Anyways, you still have to dare me something, remember?''
''Uh yeah wait let me think for a second.'' I had something on my mind but I'm pretty sure I would regret saying it right after it, I shouldn't dare him doing that, it isn't even a dare, it's stupid. It's jealousy, why am I so dumb. I screw up things most of the times, even when I know I'm going to ruin something I still do it because I am just stupid and my life is already miserable so why does it matter. I sighed and looked deeply in his eyes, whispering ''Kiss me.''
