~Sugar Daddy~

Messy break up - 8

Cameron's POV

I just dropped off Eric at work, after I "slept over" it's been about a month since he found out about Poki and I haven't broken up with her yet, I can tell it makes Eric upset, he asked me if I've broke up with her last night, of course I told him the truth and he didn't like that very much I don't like making him upset, and I hate that I'm lying to him, but real the truth is I already know Eric, from school years ago, and I was one of the kids that bullied him, I regret everyday the words I said to him, how many times I made him bleed and cry, sometimes my guilt intensifies so much to where I'll have nightmares of him begging, I know the only way to get rid of this guilt was to come clean about the feeling I tried to get rid of years ago and finally love him, of course I can't tell him that, I don't want him to hate him again.

when I saw him at the Cafe I was so happy and I was glad he didn't recognize me, but it's kinda hard too, I've changed so much since high school, I can't get into a committed relationship with him but I'm not 100% sure about feelings or if they're even true, all I know is in highschool I always felt really bad after beating him up or saying some dumb shit, I knew I was bisexual but I didn't want to believe the first guy I liked was him.

I was getting closer to home, and I honestly wasn't excited for it, I knew she is going to be there, I know I seem a bit rude to her but I looked to her phone, when she fell asleep with it on the couch, and saw her texts with a guy she called him babe and said she'll "get the money soon", it was way before I started cheating, I was actually committed into our relationship and believed she actually loved me unlike other guys and girls I dated before but I was completely wrong, why am I still with her? I don't know, I hate seeing her but I also hate to being alone and now that I have Eric I won't be, well that is if I can convince him to move in with me.

I get home and immediately see Poki at the door with her hand on her hips, "where were you?" She questions, when I walk into the house "out." I respond "is that a hickey?!" she comes up to me and touches my neck trying to rub it off, I had totally forgotten that he made one, I push her hand away "it's nothing, don't worry about it" I say calmly holding her arms then hands but she pulls way "you do this every time, you cheat on me then butter me up but you're not getting me this time, who was it? Huh?! Who was it this time?" She exclaims, "no one" I said "don't worry about" I repeat getting slightly annoyed, "was it that guy that was here a couple weeks ago? I should've fucking known that you slept with that whore" she was about to slap me until I grab her wrist "don't even think about doing that again" I spit out venomously, her eyes water up and pulls her hand away "why do you do this to me? I do so much
for you-"really? Because to me it looks like you're sticking around to get money from me," I growl, "and don't you ever call him that" tears stream down her cheek, "I love you Cameron, and you know that's not true it's the opposite he's the one using you for money," "he doesn't even accept my money" I state, "he's playing mind games on you, baby" she sobs, she comes up to me and cups my cheeks looking into my eyes "why can't you see that I love you, Cam? Why don't you say it back anymore? You don't need that fag I'm right here " "I went through you're phone, Poki" I admit, "I know you're using me for money and about your little boyfriend" she backs away, "I- I can explain" "you have nothing to explain, so get out" I snarl "you can't kick me out, I-I love you Cameron, he doesn't mean anything me" I turn away "get. out." I demanded, "can I at least get my stuff?" She sobs "you have 5 minutes, if you're not done I will drag you out" she gasps and rushed upstairs, I sigh and get my phone from my pocket I'm not actually going to do it I just want her out of my house so I needed to scared her.

She walks out and looks over at me with teary eyes "Cameron, please think about this, I mean it I'm not using you for money" her bottom lip quivers, I do feel bad but at the same time I hate her, "just get out" I avoid looking at her I know if I do I'll tell her to stay out of guilt "I'll call you an Uber" I say walking her to the door "or you could tell your boyfriend to pick you up" she looks up at me "please look at me" "it's 10 minutes away" I say dragging her suitcase outside, she cries harder when I walk back inside and close the door, was I too cold? No, she deserves it she lied and used me, I sigh, I could really use a kiss from Eric right now, but need to get to work.

After my shift I picked Eric up, as usual. I notice him looking over at me while I was driving and he looked at my neck and I realized he gave me the hickey on purpose, I smirk "you did that on purpose, didn't you?" he blushes completely guilty "maybe" he looks away cutely, I chuckles "well she saw it and we broke up" I explain "oh I'm so sorry, I didn't think she'd see it" He apologizes "well don't worry she's out of the picture now" I says smiling at him "I mean without you I probably would've never broken up with her, so really, thank you" I look back at the road, I see him bite his bottom lip, clearly thinking if he made the right choice, it was adorable.

"Oh you can just drop me off at the store I need to pick up some things" he states "I can help you out" I suggest pulling up to the grocery store, "no it's fine, I'm not gonna take long, I can walk it's not far from my apartment," he takes off his seatbelt "are you sure?" He nods with a cute hum "alright, call me when you get home" I say as he left the car, "bye" I watch him go inside and smile to myself, checking him out.
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