~Sugar Daddy~

Lucky three - 17

TW(Trigger Warning): Death threat, and suicidal thoughts

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I've been trying to get the note out of my head, they couldn't actually be here, they didn't follow me to Melbourne, right? I tried to shake the thought out of my head, as I stared at the not. I sigh and look over to the bathroom where Cameron was showering.

He can't know what a loser I was in high school I go over to one of his drawers that I knew Cam had a lighter in and, I pick it up and throw the note into a trash can before lighting it on fire I watch as it burns and withers away into ashes just as Cameron opens the bathroom room I rush to hide the trash can and put the lighter back.

"Hey babe," I say nervously, "Hey baby, what are you doing?" He questions, raising an eyebrow, "uh... nothing" he tilts his hand cutely "then why are you standing up?" "Oh. I was stretching" I excuse, "yeah work has been exhausting and my back hurts" I sat back on the bed, "oh I could give you a massage" he offers as he puts on some boxers and sat down next to me.

"Oh, there's no need" he gets behind me anyways and gives me a message, it felt quite nice actually, I kinda needed this, "just relax" he kisses my neck as he massages my shoulders and neck, I do so and enjoy it.

"How was work?" I ask, "it was the same, boring as always" "I'm sure you need more this more than I do" I chuckle, he does too and I smile, he couldn't be sweeter and selfless.

"Hey, um, my company is having a celebration party in a couple of weeks, I was wondering if you wanted to come, you could call Mason and Tobi to come along too," he says, I turn around "of course I'll come" I smile, he smiles back "it might be boring though so, we can leave at any time you want".

"I'm sure it won't be that boring" he scoffs and laughs a little before laying down, I lay down next to him and look up at the ceiling, "how did we get here?" I say out of the blue, "love~" he chirps and snuggles into me, imitating me, I roll my eyes and cuddle him.

~The next day~

I got released from work early today so I drove back home in my car when I got there I saw a letter taped to the front door so I parked the car outside and went up to do it, I thought Cameron had put it there but once I got close I knew exactly who it was from.

I rip it off the door and looked around fearfully as I stubble to get my keys and getting the door open, once I do I lock the door but hear stumbling behind me, Is cam home?

"Babe? Are you home?" I turn around and yell out, but I got no response, I go into the living room and spot two girls my eyes widen, did I just walk into the middle of a break-in?

They were both blond and skinny, one wore a black dress and the other wore a red dress and they had matching heels, it was a little strange for a break in but they could be drunk. The one in the black dress seemed to be looking for something and the other was looking under the couch, neither of them noticed me.

"What are you doing in here?" I say scaring both of them, they stood up startled and you could see the panic in their eyes, "this isn't what it looks like" the red dress woman says with a nervous smile, "it looks like you broke into our house and now you're trying to rob us" I begin to take out my phone, "no no no, we're friends of Cameron, he let us in but then he got a work call and had to go" she excuses.

This feels too familiar...

"Why did he let you in?" I raise an eyebrow, the girls look at each other until the one in black dress speaks "we ran out of gas, so he let us stay here but... he never showed us where the gasoline cans were, so we're kinda stuck here.."

Oh god... I'm in Poki's position now aren't I... Cameron wouldn't cheat on me, would he? I mean now that I have a clear view of their faces, their makeup was messy and some of their lipstick was smudged and the excuse was just the same as mine when I met Poki, Fuck- I can't deny it, it's all here he cheated on me.

"Just tell me he cheated..." I sigh, and look away, they look guilty and one of them comes up to me and places her hand on my shoulder and I tear up, "I'm so sorry. We're sorry, we didn't know he had a boyfriend..." my bottom lip quivers, as I try to push my tears away, I sniffle and look back up at them, "what were you looking for?" I ask changing the topic, "um... I lost my earring..." the one in the black dress said looking away ashamed.

I look around the living room when I find a silver earring sticking inside a pillow, I pull it out, "this one?" she nods and takes it from my hands, "thank you.. and sorry" "it's ok, you didn't know" I say exhaling deeply, "do you guys need a ride home? Or I could call you an Uber?" I break the silence "could you please our phone's died?" she says "yeah, of course" I pull my phone out, I hand it to them to put the address in.

They give it back to me, "thanks, but why are you being nice to us?" the girl in the red dress asks, "it's not you guys I should be mad at, you guys didn't know, he did" they give me a weak comforting smile, it was silent as we made it to the door, the Uber arrives and they both leave thanking me and saying sorry.

When I go back inside and cry immediately, how could he do this to me? That two-faced bitch! I hear the letter crinkle in my pocket as I curl up into a ball against the door, I take it out and open it up.

--TW STARTS HERE--

You're still the lame gay loser you've always been, we bet you're just using your boyfriend for money and he's just using you for sex. Your life is making me depressed, just end it already! We'll all be happier.

They're probably right... Cameron doesn't love me or even cares about me, I'm still his stupid sugar baby sex toy, I cry harder balling up again. I'm useless and unloved I should've known Cameron was too good to be true, I have nowhere to go. I can't be happy anywhere, maybe I should just do it...

I get up and head upstairs spotting myself in the mirror I stop and look, being disgusted by what I saw I cry even more, I'm ugly and depressed. I go over to our neatly made bed and lay on it, letting out a deep breath I didn't realize I was holding, everything hurts so bad but every time I think of  Cam I still see him "the love of my life" and my "soulmate" if those even exist anymore, why am I still in love with him? why do I still want to lay in this bed with him? am I just that desperate for love.

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