~Sugar Daddy~

How it started - 35

After my family "left" Eric and I cleaned up and went up to my room, Eric took off his jacket as I went to my bed, I sat on the edge of the bed and I roll my neck trying to loosen it but I was too tense, I feel Eric climb on the bed and sit behind me, "need help?" he asks, I sigh "yeah..." I say softly, he places his warm soft hand on my shoulders and gently massages my shoulders and neck, I hum happily and smile, "you're amazing" I moan a little, he is amazing "hey babe? Can I ask you a question?" he says, "of course baby" I turn around, "what have you never told me before?" He asks, I sigh and bite my lip, he grins and sits back,"what else?" He was a little excited "hmm, well the night I crashed into a deer was the night I killed Poki, I buried her but I still wasn't satisfied I was still angry that I let her hurt you and I was so blinded by my rage I forgot to change out of the bloody clothes I was in so I purposely hit the deer and walked home, it was the perfect cover-up" I explain, "holy shit, Cam... I wonder, how did this all start? How did you start killing people?" He looked my way, worried but not worried for his own life, he was worried about me... how I was, "well... if you want the full story.

~Flashback~

(TW: Mention of death and blood)

In elementary school, grade 4, I was out with some friends outside in the park, playing some dumb ball game they made up for a while until some of us noticed it was getting dark out, "I should get going now" one of them said the others agreed and I just nod since I didn't really want to go home, everyone left and I ended up going home anyways.

I walked home alone until I heard some thunder roar, I turn around and saw dark heavy clouds behind me I frown and started to run home, I get to the door and quickly go inside, I close and lock the door but heard panicked shuffling behind me, I turn around and my neighbor, Ms.Grace, on the ground bleeding out, completely lifeless, she was stabbed in the gut multiple time with a kitchen knife, her blood was fresh and spreading fast, I was shocked. I froze, I didn't know what to do.

Just then my mother runs in with a mop and a couple of trash bags, she was very pregnant at the time with my second brother, she saw me and her eyes widen, "Cammy... why are you home so early?" she asks "mum... what happened to Ms.Grace" I ask frightened, "well I guess it is time to tell you..." she sighs and steps over our neighbor towards me and she got on her knees to my level, "Grace was hurting our family, Cameron, she was going to take your daddy away from us she was manipulating him, trying to convince him to leave us so... I had to... get rid of her, so daddy will love us forever" she said, I frown and look back at her body, but my mother moves my head gently to look back at her, "but no one can find out about this Cammy... if they do, I'll be taken away and no one will care for you to your brothers, this will be our secret." she looks dead into my eyes, "promise me you won't tell anyone" she raises her pinky up, I nod and cross our pinkies together "I promise..." I say trembling, she smiles "come on, mummy's going to teach you some new things" she stands up and rubs her pregnant belly, I let out a breath I didn't realize I was holding in, "come on grab her arms and I'll grab her legs, we need to take her to the backyard" she goes over to her legs, I nodded and did as told.

~End of flashback~

"I don't know if I was just scared that she was going to hurt me too or if I was actually interested in what she was doing, but I helped her a lot and she helped me a lot of my kills too" I sigh, "Cameron... I'm so sorry, that must have been so traumatizing for you" I looked back up at Eric and he was crying, I quickly sit up and wipe his tears away, "hey it's ok baby, I was fine" I say, "no you're not, Cam, you have extreme issues to the point where you'd murder people to keep the ones you love most close to you, because of your mother... you can't commit to things because your mom put this image in your head that you have to kill to get what you want when you don't want to, she killed because she wanted what was best for her and no one else" he was right... I always thought my mother knew what was best for me because she killed for me and our family but she was selfish and she wanted the perfect family in her eyes, she wanted me to be the perfect son, and that's why she never wanted to accept I was gay until now, I started to tear up as well, "Cam... I think you need therapy, maybe don't mention the killing part but maybe it can stop, you don't have to hurt people, you will always have me and if something doesn't go your way, talk to me, and we'll figure it out, but I promise you I will never leave your side" I was crying hard at this point, why was I so blinded until now, maybe I really did just need to open up, this is the first time I've ever told anyone about this, I hold his hands, I wanted to say something but I was shocked, Eric pulled me into a hug and let me cry into his shoulder, "it's ok baby... let it all out" he comforted me and assured me as I cried, "why me? Why did she pick me? Is there something wrong with me?" "It was just bad timing, it's not your fault baby, you're perfect.." he said and kissed my forehead, we laid down and I cuddle Eric as close to me as possible, he looked into my eyes, "everything is ok, I'm sure of it." He whispered and kissed me, I smiled and kissed him back, "I love you" I whispered, "I love you too" he mirrored back.

The next few weeks, I went to a counseling office and got a therapist, I referred to me and my mother's murders as hunting deer, it helped finally being able to tell something, even if it wasn't the whole truth it was still helpful, "and then I started hunting deer... I didn't like it but I thought I needed to in order to be happy, to have an actual life with someone..." I saw nervously, and look up at her, "wow... Cameron, your mother wanted you to follow her path in order to control you, even when you thought you were rebellious, you did what she told you, and it's not your fault, she gaslit you and manipulated you, but with the correct treatment we can help you face your fear of your mother" she said I smile and she smiled back, "yeah, if it wasn't for my boyfriend I would have never realized that I needed this"

"And this boyfriend is still with you?"

"Surprisingly yes, I thought he wouldn't hate me after all of the p-deer I've hurt, but he help realize it was a problem, and I was thinking about purposing to him..."

"Wow, it's a very big change but he is good to you and this may be a change for the better, he can help you and push towards the best version of yourself, Cameron, if you believe you're both ready for it, then do it, and do it with confidence.." she smiled widely, I sigh happily and smile back.

After work, I go home and a delicious smell infiltrated my nose, "wow.." I say shocked, I followed the smell to the kitchen where Eric was cooking a meaty steak on the stove, he was wearing the cutest apron as well, "hey babe, how was work?" He said cheerfully, "it was decent, wow, when did you learn all of this?" I ask as I placed my suitcase down on the ground, usually, I was the one cooking for us, but this genuinely shocked me, "oh I found this cookbook in your library, I hope you don't mind.." he turned down the heat on the stove to come to talk to me, "of course, everything that's mine is yours" I assure, he smiles and loosens up my tie, "we're basically married at this point" he jokes, I chuckle but really I was nervous, what if he doesn't want to get married? Or he's not ready? I love him dearly and I know we won't break up if he says no but being awkward with someone you love is so uncomfortable and I don't want to make this uncomfortable, I want to marry him but I want him to be ready. "Go shower, dinner is almost ready" he kisses my cheek and goes back to cooking, I smile and go upstairs.

I put on some nice clothes, I thought maybe this was the right time and put a red box in my pocket that had an engagement ring inside then head back downstairs, Eric has just taken off his apron and revealed a nice white button-down with black pants, "so handsome" I flirt, he smiles and blushes, I walked closer and I saw the table was completely set, there were small candles in the middle of the table, a nice bottle of wine and some flower at the end of the table, just then Eric turned off the light and there were small fairy lights hanging above the dining room "wow..." I said looking at the lights in awe, "surprise" he sounded a little nervous, "you've been working so hard, I thought I could surprise you with dinner," he took my hand and led me to the dining room, "you're making me so hard right now" I joke, we both chuckle and sat down, he sat down in front of me, and we ate together.

Eric was telling me some stories of his childhood to me and I was telling him some of mine, "I thought I died" he said and we both laughed, I went for another sip of wine, and as I tipped the cup something cold and metal hit my lip, "huh?" I furrow my eyebrows and trapped the object in between my lips and pull the cup away, I look over at Eric nearly sweating from how nervous he was, I raise my eyebrow confused as he stood and took the thing out of my mouth, it was a gold ring, my eyes widen, he got down on one knee and smiles nervously "Cameron McKay... will you marry me?" He proposed... I stared at him in shock, I watched as he gulped "of course, I will, dummy" I pulled him into a deep kiss, we pull away and smile, and we both teared up "I actually had the same idea" I pull the red box and show him the ring "oh my god" he laughs and gets up, we smile and hug, I pull him into my lap, "I can't want for our wedding" I hold him tighter, "me neither, I want to do right now" he giggles and pulls away from the hug, we look into each other's eyes, "you are amazing... and word can't describe how much I love you..." I say, he kissed me and pulled me in deep.

I never intended for him to fall in love, hell I didn't think I would fall in love, I didn't mean to hurt him either, I thought I'd ever see him and I don't think I should've, Eric should've turned me in to the police and be happy with someone else, but he wanted me, and I still can't seem to wrap that but I'll glad he's here and I'm glad he's mine, he's my husband...

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