Ok so 2 chapters I was telling my situation about the quarantine.
The last resort option was to get an antibody test. If I had covid antibodies, then I would be able to go to practice. I went with my mom on Saturday to donate blood, because they would analyze the blood to see if I had the antibodies for free. However, I couldn't give blood because I was in contact with someone who tested positive. I'd have to wait until after 14 days to give blood, and obviously that wouldn't work.
The other option was to get just the antibody test, but it was $60. We tried going on Sunday, but they were closed by the time we got there. So I had to wait until yesterday.
We went yesterday back to the same place and they were open. They didn't ask if I came in contact with anyone, so that's good. They pricked my finger and 10-15 minutes later they came back with the results. I tested negative for covid (shocker), but I didn't have the antibodies. (What a waste of $60.) And that was the last nail in the coffin. I can't go to championships.
I'm just so frustrated. I'm getting punished for something I didn't do, like when the teacher punishes the whole class because the class clown was being annoying. I'm disappointing my coach, my team, and myself. I just texted my coach telling her that I can't go, and I burst into tears. There's nothing I can do to get out of this. There's nothing anyone else can do to get me out of this. This year was already shit (which can be a whole rant in and of itself, but I'll save it for another time), but this is definitely the rotten cherry on top.
It sickens me to think of the show without me. I know that sounds bad, but hear me out. When there's a person missing in the show, there's a giant gap where that person is supposed to go. So at these last few practices, they'll have to fill in my spot and adjust some things in drill and choreography. So even if I magically got cleared to go, they would have to re-adjust what they already adjusted. What's worse is that I'm one of 2 people on saber line, so there will only be 1 person on saber. We'll have 3 people on rifle line instead of 4, and 7 performers in total instead of 8. We already lost one person from quarantining (she got quarantined twice in a row, and therefore missed an entire month of practice), and now we're losing another person.
Yes, I know it's not my fault that any of this is happening, but I can't help but take some of the blame... And yeah I know people say like "I'm sorry this is happening to you" and yes I appreciate it, but I just want a way out of this situation... that's all I want to hear, that's there's still hope that I can go to championships... unfortunately it seems like I'm all out of options.
