Ngayon lang ulit ako nagkabalita sa kanya. Well there are those times na sinasabi sa akin nila Alex ang mga pangyayari pero minsan lang 'yun if talagang significant but they never mentioned that he's seeing someone now. I don't even know that he got himself a girlfriend kung hindi ko makikita ang picture. Never nila 'to nabanggit sa akin. Not even Alex.
Nagulat nalang ako when one day Travis made a new Facebook and Instagram account and he didn't add or follow me. Silly me dahil akala ko nung una ay hindi lang niya siguro ako masearch because of my settings so I changed it but days, weeks, months passed at wala pa rin. I had no idea as to why pero hindi ko nalang pinansin.
Maraming beses ako nakipagdebate sa sarili ko whether to add him or not pero sa tuwing naiisip ko na hindi niya ginawa ay naiinis ako. Maybe he created a new account kasi ayaw niya talaga akong maging friend. And even his Instagram! There, I followed him and since nakaprivate siya I needed to be approved by him first before I can have access to his photos pero iniignore niya ang request ko. I even saw him post something pero hindi pa rin niya ako inaccept so I cancelled it. It's not really a big deal for me but it's weird.
Not that mababaw ako or what kasi Facebook at Instagram lang naman 'yun so what kung hindi kami friends dun diba? It doesn't matter, I don't want to make a big deal out of it pero si Travis 'tong pinaguusapan natin. Really, pakiramdam ko ayaw na rin niya ako iaccept pa sa life niya kaya hindi ko na rin pinilit.
I stared at my phone for several minutes and I can't believe what I'm seeing. Dahil ba maaga akong nagising ay nagiimagine na ako ng mga bagay bagay o bumaliktad na ba ang mundo?
Travis Guevarra added you as a friend.
Accept/Decline
What now? He has the guts to add me? After 2 years ngayon lang? Dapat ba akong matuwa? Ngayon lang ba lumabas ang pangalan ko sa suggested friends niya? Gusto kong icancel ang request niya but that would be bitter of me. Of course.
Instead of thinking if I should accept or ignore his request, I closed my FB. Baka napindot lang niya, mamaya mawawala rin siguro.
Umagang umaga yet sumasakit na agad ang ulo ko sa pagiisip.
Saturday morning is supposed to be fun and not like this. I decided to jog around the subdivision. Baka pag nagjog na ako ay magising na ako and everything will be back to normal.
Nadaanan ko ang bahay ni Josh as I jog. Josh's humor is exactly what I need right now.
Sinalubong ako ng mom niya. "Good morning Auntie!"
Sumilip siya sa likod ko at parang may tinitignan. "Good morning Ielle! Sexy ka na nagjojogging ka pa! Anyway, kagagaling lang ni Travis dito kanina, 'di mo ba siya naabutan?"
Halos manigas ako sa living room nila nang nabanggit si Travis. Anong ginawa niya dito? Kasama kaya niya 'yung girlfriend niya?
"Hindi po. Sige po, akyat na ako!"
Habang paakyat ako unti unti nang nagsink in sa akin ang katotohanan. He is really back! We're breathing the same air!
"Goodmorning Joshie!" I exclaimed. Too happy I guess at kahit sa sarili ko ay masasabi kong it sounds fake.
Binaba niya ang phone niya at tumingin sa akin. "Is my clock wrong or talagang nandito ka ng 9am?" At nihead to foot niya ako. "At nagjogging pa!"
"Hindi ka funny. Can't sleep. Ayaw mo ba akong makita Mr. Joshie?" I joked but his mood immediately changed. He actually has a serious look on his face right now like when someone is hitting on me and he'll go protective look.
"You know he's back right?" Then he patted his bed to let me sit.
"I know. Galing siya dito kanina diba? Sayang didn't get to say hi." I said nonchalantly.
A part of me was really disappointed for not seeing him. I missed him at kahit seconds lang okay lang sa akin basta makita ko lang siya but a part of me was really thankful that hindi kami nakapangabot because I don't really know what to say or act in front of him. I'm just sure that it's awkward as hell!
"You don't need to act in front of me. Pero ang pinagtataka ko lang ay bakit ka nandito? You know what you need to sleep. Tignan mo yang eyebags mo!"
"Natutulog naman ako! And I so happened to come across your house. 'Yun lang." I shrugged.
"Considering that my house is near but shouldn't you run to Alex?" Pinandilatan niya ako.
Nagiwas ako ng tingin nang tignan niya ako sa mata afraid that he might find the answer there. I can't run to Alex. Masyado akong mahina when it comes to his comforting words at alam kong once na nandun ako Alex will do anything to squeeze the problem out of me.
"Kung ayaw mo ko nandito sabihin mo lang Josh. You are hurting my feelings."
He sighed then lumapit sa side ko and patted my head. "I like you more than her. And you're prettier. Marami pang food sa bahay, pacrash mamaya ah?"
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"Para sa mahal na prinsesa." Aniya habang binibigay sa akin ang pancake na puno ng chocolate. Favorite ko kasi 'yun.
"Actually Josh 'yan talaga ang pinunta ko dito."
"I know. Ayan ha, kahit na palagi mo kong sinisigawan ang bait ko pa rin sayo!"
I rolled my eyes "Bayad mo 'to sa lahat ng pagkain na inubos mo sa bahay noh!" I said before digging into my food while ignoring his remarks and I also made a mental note: bawasan ang pagsusungit kay Josh.
"Sarap noh? Ha, ang galing ko talaga!"
Ignore
"Oo Josh ang sarap nga! Ang galing mo magluto ang gwapo mo pa!"
Ignore him!
"Ang sarap kasi ng pancake Josh kaya hindi ako namamansin."
This time I sighed in defeat. "Josh, stop complimenting yourself dahil alam naman natin dalawa na si Auntie ang gumawa nito and not you. You can't even cook instant noodles by yourself!" Sabi ko bago ko sinubo ang huling piraso ng pancake.
Auntie really makes good pancakes. Bakit pag ako ang gumagawa hindi naman ganito kasarap?
"KJ! Hindi man lang nakiride!" Bulong niya.
"Hindi ka ba nahiya kay Auntie sa pinagsasabi mo?" Lingon ko kay Auntie na natatawa sa amin habang hawak ang isang fashion magazine.
"Nope! Pero kung ako ikaw mahihiya ako sa dami ng kinain ko." He retorted and I only grinned at him and stuck my tongue out like a child.
This is why I love being with Josh. Once he opens his mouth napapasaya na niya ako sa mga witty remarks niya.
Bagay na bagay talaga sa kanya ang course niyang Communication Arts.
I love how he can make me smile despite all of my problems.
