I absolutely have no intention to fall in love. Falling in love wasn't even on my list but unfortunately for me, it's confirmed. I'm really in love with that asshole.
These past few days everything he does frustrates the hell out of me with no reason at all na parang bumalik lang kami sa dating kami. But then again all those stupid things he did made me smile for no reason. I'm really a bahay person but when it comes to him I'm willing to go out. And it's kind of stupid that I'm actually willing to go out just for him even if it's 3am and we have nothing else to do but as long as we are together it's all worth it. Like who needs sleep when you can be with someone you like?
And well, here comes the most obvious sign. Every freaking thing makes me think of him. Drugstore, Trigo and even soup! That's why I bought so many of it yesterday. I don't know but the canned soup just got 10x yummier. Oh and I day dream a lot too. Like what it's like to date a guy like him, to hold hands with him, to walk with him.
See, I'm just day dreaming about us again and it scares the shit out of me. I know where this is heading and that place is nowhere and it'll hurt big time. It scares me but hell, I want it!
And he hasn't been contacting me for days since I snapped at him.
"What's with you and Travis? Are you two fighting again?"
"Alex, don't tell me you didn't go the gym to ask me that." I said in disbelief. Today is his gym day. He never missed gym day and this is his first time.
"You didn't answer my question. And consider it as my cheat day."
"We're good, you know, good. Yeah, probably." I shrugged.
I don't know what's gotten into me pero ito nanaman ako feeling ko kailangan ko muna siyang layuan to protect my heart so ginawa ko ang matagal ko nang hindi ginagawa sa kanya, I snapped at him and he was pissed.
All his actions were just because I'm like his sister and one of his friends, I shouldn't give meaning to that. Kasalanan ko na umasa ako and nagexpect ako na baka medyo gusto rin niya ako pero nalaman ko na he was just concern about me.
I hate how he always annoy me without him knowing and even without exerting any effort. He annoys me in a way that my heart flutters when I see him, when I talk to him and when I'm near him. Is that even possible?
Alex's brows shot up. "What's good suppose to mean?"
"It means we're good, we're friends. What more could I ask for diba? He said I'm his only girl and he's concern about me, that he misses me, all that shit. It's nothing to him but I never thought that his charm would work on me."
"Ahh there it goes. Can I say something? Tell me if I'm wrong but I think you're irritated just because you like him and he doesn't?" This guy was too satisfied.
"No of course n-"
"Wait, you definitely don't like him because you love him, don't you?" He added at mas lalo akong nairita.
I don't want to talk to Alex right now but he's the only person who knows exactly what I'm feeling and the only person who understand me best so I really have no choice but to continue talking to him.
"I think you need to tell him. You'd feel better."
"Nababaliw ka na ba?"
"Ikaw hindi ba? I mean it's not that bad."
"Really? Hindi ba burdensome? I mean he like someone else tapos biglang sasabihin ko gusto ko siya?" Napakunot ang noo niya sa tanong ko. "Just so you know we're not really in good terms right now."
"Just call him. Wait, you said he like someone else? Saan mo nakuha 'yan?"
I rolled my eyes. Look at him playing all innocent. "I have my sources! Nako wag niyo nang pagtakpan si Travis!"
And just like that, I'm standing right in front of his room thinking if I should really do it. Once I knock alam kong wala nang atrasan 'to.
Pwede ko naman hindi sabihin pero hindi ko na kasi mapigilan. Hindi ko alam kung saan ko nakuha ang tapang ko, I think love really makes one brave. Pwede ko naman 'to sabihin sa phone but I don't know what came into my mind at personal ko pa talaga siyang pinuntahan.
I knocked but no one answered so I tried again. Please, sana nandito si Travis. Please- "Wait."
Bigla akong naduwag nang narinig ko ang boses niya. "No! Don't open the door."
"Brielle? Anong ginagawa mo dito?" May halong pagtataka sa boses niya at sinubukan niya uli buksan.
"Wag mong buksan. Aalis ako pag binuksan mo." I paused when he seemed to realize I'm serious. "I have something to tell you."
"Ano?"
"If you try to open this, I tell you, our friendship is over!" I threatened though it's not really a threat.
"Okay, I won't."
See he can be cooperative if he want to.
"I know this is weird but you need to listen because I won't be saying this again." I started. "First, sorry for snapping at you the other day. Travis you are a good man. Matagal ko na 'tong gusto sabihin sayo, actually I was going to nung party ni Greg but obviously I didn't. Pero alam mo, kung parehas kami ng taste ng nililigawan mo then you won't have any problem kasi ako gusto kita. But no worries, gusto ko lang talaga sabihin 'to sayo."
Pinakiramdaman ko siya pero tahimik lang siya. Maybe he was too shock to process anything I said and I'm just beginning to regret all of this but still continued.
"I hope things won't get awkward between us. I'm willing to help, sabihin mo lang. 'Yun lang. Good luck!" I ran as quickly as I can bago pa niya ako abutan dahil baka mahimatay ako sa sobrang hiya pag naabutan niya ako.
Nakahinga lang ako nang nasa kotse na ako. Wow. That was awesome! Parang nabawasan 'yung bigat na nararamdaman ko.
Bukas ko na iisipin kung paano siya haharapin sa school.
