A Significant Decision

Chapter 16

I mean why?

Have i done something wrong?

Is there something wrong with me?

Am i not enough?

I kept on questioning myself; my worth, me.

Did i deserve Kehan's treatment?

I thought everything was fine, i feel so miserable.

Tomorrow is my last day here in the Philippines. I almost forgot doing vlogs. LOL.

I locked myself in my room, remembering those moments with Kehan, i keep remembering what I did wrong. All i did was to love? Was it also wrong?

Having those thoughts i suddenly felt my eyes heating up and a drop of liquid fell into my eyes.

*Hubby - Calling*

Should I? Pero hindi kopa nasasagot yung sarili ko ay sinagot kona yung tawag.

;“ ano yon?”
:“let's talk please, tomorrow, 10am, meeting place, i love you and im sorry” sabi sa kabilang linya
;“okay i love y--” hindi kona natapos yung sasabihin ko ay pinatay ya na ang nasa kabilang linya.

The drop of liquid turned into an outburst. I cant handle this, i cried my eyes out until i felt my eyes heavy....

The loud shout of my bestfriend woke me up the next day. She was busy because bumalik na sya sa trabaho in France. Lol, RK naman sana all pa balik-balik France pa Pinas huhu.

I checked the time.

9:56

WHAT?!?!!!????!!

wait .....

I AM GOING TO MEET MY FIAN-- i mean..... KEHAN !!!!!

I immediately stood up and fixed myself. Went to our spot.

He's going to be mad.

When i already arrived there, i immediately sat infront of him. And when he noticed ky presence, i saw his eyes. Full of emotions, teary and trying to hold back the tears. 

He was just looking at me. My heart felt so heavy seeing him like this and I cant stand this

“Ti--n-ne”-- and he was crying so loud. His voice is cracked and hearing this makes my knees tremble.

“Amber” he called me again with my second name, the name he alone uses to call me.

I bursted out my tears, the both of us were just staring at each others eyes.

“Amber, I love you but-- Im sorr-”

“Don't be sorry. Before i return my ring, i want to ask you something.”
........
“ Why? Why-- love?” i said crying.

He placed a paper infront of me. The poem i wrote about Dev.

“Kung pwedi lang balikan ang lahat, pati ang buhay ko. Ikaw padin ang pipiliin ko mahal”

“I dont need more explinations, Tine. I know from the start that your love for him never faded. And im thankful for you. For everything you did for me.” he wasnt mad, he was crying out so hard.

“I know you deserve him. Wag mo na akong alalahanin. Please, please be happy, even--

even without me”

I bursted out more, I was so blind.

“I love you, I love you so much. I will never regret loving you and its a pleasure knowing you loved me. Mahal kita.” he stood up, gave me a hug, a very tight hug. We were like that for almost a minute.

“I love you, and im sorry”

He walked away.

Seeing the person who did was just to love me walking away from me, from my life.

“Ill promise, ill be happy, love”

A/N: SAARRRYY, mejo nasakitan ko sang gina sulat ko huhu. Paubaya ka ghorl.