A Significant Decision

Chapter 17

I went home... feeling, miserable?

As i sat in the couch, my phone ringed.

It was a messege from Kehan.

It took me so much courage to open it until i decided to do so.

I breathe deeply as i opened the notification...

‘Looking back to where it all began, I can say that youre one of the best blessing God gave me.

P-pero? Why? Why Amber?

All i did was to love you, masama ba yon?

Andon ako nung wala ka nang makapitan, i was there, and im still here.

But anyways, parehas lang naman tayo...

We both said “I Love You”...

But the difference between us two is....

I didnt lied.

I know it was also my fault. Im sorry for hurting you, love. I know what i did was wrong, but... i cant bare seeing you not being happy with me anymore even were still together.

I know you never stopped loving Deveraux. I know he did not too.

I want you to be happy for the rest of your life by choosing to let you go.

Please, be happy. For me.

I am very sorry, my love.

Im letting you go.’

Habang nag babasa ay nakita ko nalang ang sarili kong umiiyak

Tumunog ulit ang phone ko

‘For the last time... I love you, my Amber.’

Hindi ko mapigilang humagulgol.

I just hope in a parallel universe, i still have Kehan.

I still have that person who will love me. Who will save me.
A person who knows nothing but to love.
Someone who will be there no matter what.
Someone like Kehan.

I was wiping my tears, remembering no one would do that for me.

Nag eempake na ako, off to go back to Seoul. I miss work. I had a great time here, a great experience.

It was a very Significant Decision, catching up to everyone. But regretting it at the same time.

Everything that had happened here are such great lessons to me. The people i had encountered, the experiences, the heartbreaks.

I sighed as i kissed my mom goodbye and went inside the car to the airport.

“Ill miss you, mom. Take care please. I love you” i whispered with a hug.

Everything will be alright.

Kasalanan ko'to lahat e.

Maybe there are things that isnt really meant for us. But we keep on pursuing it because we want it. And sometimes, we dont realize na may nasasktan na pala tayo. Confusion.