A Significant Decision

Chapter 18

AN/*: Here i am again, apologizing to all of you. I am sorry for the short and late updates. Were having some self crisis : ) Thank you for constantly supporting Deveraux and Amber. I love you

Sana panaginip nalang lahat ng ito. Sana hindi totoo. Sana magising pako sa bangungot. Pero hinde. Alam ko namang hinde.

That was three years ago. Wishing so hard that it was all a dream. An awful dream. I learned so much and i think im ready to face my crisis now.

I dont think im lucky enough in love. Im 28 now, and after that i decided to stay in Seoul with my mom. She's been there with me throughout the journey. She's my diary and the best mom ever.

I never saw this coming pero wala naman tayong magawa eh, ito yung fate natin. Ito yung nangyari, and its all because of my decisions. All i can ever do now is, to accept.

All of those lessons are enough na siguro to move on and let the world deal with it. 

Next week ay uuwi kami sa Pilipinas, staying for good. I miss everyone there. Nothing feels like home, ika nga.

I got up and decided to go get some groceries for the last week na stay namin dito. I already booked a flight and we packed our things already.

I called my bestfriend, Ven.

“Hello beb, kamusta ka dyan?” tanong ko sa kanya. “How's my baby pat there? kamusta? Im sorry i havent called you for a while.” dagdag ko pa. She's lucky. Her and Ceddie ended up together, got married last year and had their baby. While me.... NEVERMIND.

“Were fine here. How about you and tita? Heard tito's so busy na nag vi-visit nalang sya dyan sainyo?” she said. “Oo nga. Kamusta ka naman dyan?” I asked. “Ang hirap maging mommy, Tine ! Gosh so much stress plus work....You? How's your healing?” she asked gently. ”Im... im fine” i said with a heavy sigh. “Ven, uuwi nga pala kami dyan next week. Tatlong taon na ata walang tao yung bahay eh.” Sabi ko sabay tawa. Pag katapos non, i heard a baby cry. I think its baby Pat. “Ill talk to you later Tine, I love you, Ingat!” Nag mamadali ata sya? “I love you too!” and she hanged up.

Im on the way to buy groceries. I bought everything me and mom needed. I work here as a writer still. Ven recommended me to this company where she used to work before she had her life there. Im happy seeing my bestfriend winning in life.

Im often alone here since mom's still really into business.

Before going home after picking up some groceries, i went to a nearby coffee shop to get my fave, my usual. Iced Coffee. The taste of heaven.

After i got my coffee, i sat in a for two bench and im about to sip my coffee but someone caught my attention in the corner of the shop. It's a guy with a jacket. Crying. Walang pumapansin sa kanya because he's not even making any sound. He's just there, just crying.

I just stared at him wondering what's happening. I think he's between his early twenty's...i continued on observing him but he caught me. Nakakahiya, gusto ko nalang talagang mag pa lamon sa lupa ngayon.

What should i do what should i do!!!!

Hindi pa ako nakapang decide sa utak ko ay gumalaw na yung katawan ko. I stood up and went to the young man.

“Heeey! im sorr--” hindi pa natatapos ang sasabihin ko ay nag salita na sya. “Can i trust you?” He asked. His eyes was full of emotions. “Ofcourse, it's better to trust in strangers some says who doesnt know your name Hahahhaha !” I smiled.

“The world is so unfair isnt it?” He said and started bursting into tears.

It is.

I kept silent as he rants everything to me.

“All i did was to love her. Is there something wrong with it? I did everything to make her stay but” he stopped with a sigh.

“You have nothing to do with it. You just have to....accept it.” i said gently.

We have the same story. This must what Kehan be feeling. A strange familiar feeling. Nag mahal lang naman talaga eh. Walang mali don pero, bakit masakit?

Tanong ko din sa sarili ko habang umiiyak sa harap ko ang lalake. He's a brave man. I admire his courage opening up to me, a stranger. He wiped his tears and smiled at me.

“Thank you. I owe you alot.” I gave him a smile and before he stood up to go, may binigay syang business card saakin. I kept it in my pockets and stood up.

“Choose what makes you happy always. Im Julius.” at nakipag kamay sya sakin. And i introduced myself too. “Continue to be happy, Im Tine.” at pagka tapos non ay umalis na sya.

Umuwi narin ako at nag pahinga. When i woke up, its already night time and mom already prepared dinner.

I ate dinner with mom and went to bed and read my favorite book.  I suddenly remembered the person i met earlier.

“Choose what makes you happy always....”

It left a question in my head. What does makes me happy?

I know deep inside that it was always been Dev. And never anyone.

Time flies really fast and a week came like a lightning. As i stepped out of the plane, i gazed my eyes and saw Ven. WITH BABY PAT !!!

She's so cute, my heart is melting. Natstakot akong hawakan sya, baka mahulog. HAHAHA !

“Hi baby !!” I tickled her and she laughs hard. “Wow naman! Mas nauna mo pa syang batiin ha!” Reklamo ni Ven. “Hi tita !” She greeted mom beside me and i greeted hee husband too. Umuwi na kami at pinauwi kk nadin sila kasi umiiyak na si baby Pat.

I missed home.
Please be kind to me, life.