Tragic Smile

The Truth Comes Out

I moved myself closer to him as we kissed, and we got comfortable. He towered over me as I reached down tracing my hands over his body.

Liv, you've done this before. It's not like your a virgin who doesn't know what you're doing. But you've only did it with Sid and you only know what Sid likes.

He began kissing down my neck and I tried to let my thoughts leave me.

I felt like I had totally forget everything I've ever known and everything I even like to hap-

His hand moved to my thigh and I inhaled a sharp gasp. He stopped kissing me and looked at me for a few seconds with lust in his eyes. "Do you want to carry on?" He asked, slowly.

I thought about it for a few seconds, could I really go through with this? I did find him sexually attractive I was just worried he wouldn't enjoy it. What if he was just having sex with me to be the 'lad' that Brad wants him to be?

I didn't want to be scared anymore, I wanted to be brave and be like Beth and not have a care in the world. I admire her ability to just turn the panic off.

"Liv?" He brought my attention back to him by saying my name.

I tried to force out an answer but nothing would come out. Just make a decision, Liv. What if he didn't like you because you rejected him?

"Yep." I squeaked.

He studied me for a few seconds, "why don't we just watch a film and we'll save it for another night?" He smiled at me reassuringly.

"I want to keep going." I said almost too quiet that I wasn't sure he heard.

"Honestly, Liv we don't have to. Let's just chill out and watch something nice on tv." He leaned over me for the remote and I felt his muscular body reach over me.

Maybe he really just doesn't want to? I've probably scared him off with my stress. Ugh what was I doing?

"Maybe, we don't have to go like the full way?" I suggested. Surely I can manage that.

He chuckled, "Liv. I want you to be ready. It will make it better for you."

"I want you to touch me." I blurted out without thinking. I wanted to feel his touch. Something to hold on to.

He raised his eye brow, "are you sure?" I nodded and he smiled at me. "Okay, well just relax a little." He instructed.

I rested back in to the pillow, lying flat. I watched him, eager for what was coming next. He towered over me again and gently pecked my lips and I moved for more but he was making his way down my body.

I closed my eyes as tight as I could as if it was going to be painful. I tried to not focus on his touch as much in case I screamed at the attention.

I felt my legs being gently spread and I peaked my eyes open a little, glancing down at him. He was grinning like the cat who got the cream as he laid in between my legs.

Breath Liv. Breath.

I felt his soft lips on my left inner thigh and I fought the urge to squeeze my knees together. "Just relax, babe." He said, probably sensing my tension.

I took a deep breath and tried to free myself from the worry as I breathed out. I can do this.

Jack's lips were getting higher and higher up and I gently bit down on my bottom lip, anticipating the pressure down there. Instead, he skipped over to my right thigh and kissed it way up.

A part of me was worried and stressed if everything down there was okay. The other part of me wasn't wanting to be teased any longer.

Patience is key, Liv. You've waited long enough you can manage another minute or two.