Tragic Smile

Ghost of Ex Girlfriend's Past

It can't be anything to do with Brad because he isn't even there. Is Jack seeing another girl? I turned my head look at her as she rushed past me, her long blonde hair bouncing as she runs down the stairs.

I fought the urge to go to his door. With everything that had happened with Nick, I didn't need more heartache today. That is definitely a tomorrow problem.

I locked our flat up behind me and made my way straight to my bedroom, feeling mentally and physically drained. No wonder he was entertaining another girl? I have been 'teasing' him for long enough.

If he wasn't interested in waiting around then why did he even come to London with me?

"Hey, you want some tea?" Beth stood in my doorway as I sat down on my bed.

I shook my head and sighed, "I'm good, thanks." I lied. I was far from good.

"You don't look 'good.' Has something happened?" She asked as she walked over and sat beside me on my bed.

"I argued with Nick." I didn't tell her the full truth. Inside me I knew if I told her what I had just saw she would blame it on the fact I didn't sleep with him either. Or the fact that she believes he doesn't want a relationship anyway.

She wrapped her arm around me, "well he is an idiot anyway."

"He said some horrible awful things." I whispered.

"Why don't me and you have a pamper night?" She suggested her usual cure for everything.

I looked at her and nodded, I think that is what I was needing. Some time away from all the drama.

"Yeah, I like that idea." I grinned.

Beth demanded I sat in the bathroom and chatted with her whilst she soaked in the bath with our face masks on.

"I mean, I just don't understand. How do you share a bed with a guy for two nights and not have sex?" She was acting as if I had told her that water wasn't wet. She just was not taking it well.

"It really isn't that hard to comprehend but, Beth." I laughed.

She tapped along the sheet mask along her face, "have you ever had good sex?"

I chocked on my saliva, "sorry what?"

"Like, that's the only way I can understand it. If you've just never had good sex ." She shrugged her shoulders.

I laughed as I got up from the floor and walked to the mirror, "yeah we're not having this conversation." Did I have good sex with Sid?

Beth and I watched movies and eat some junk food on the couch as she painted my toenails. I really appreciated her taking my mind off things but the second I had time to think, I could see that blonde's face leaving the apartment.

"You know how you said about Jack and Brad not being here for girlfriend.." I tried to bring the conversation up. Although I have never really got this impression from him but Beth and Brad have mentioned it now.

She looked up from focusing on painting my pinky nail, "I wasn't thinking straight, I do think he's a nice boy."

Why did he have that blonde girl in the apartment then? My head was screaming. This pamper night was making me worse. There was too much time to think. I can't even go down to the club and make myself busy as now me and Nick aren't speaking.

"When I was coming back up to the flat earlier there was a blonde girl coming out of theirs." I sighed.

She looked at me for a few seconds then shrugged her shoulders, "it will be something to do with Brad. Don't worry, I don't think Jack is the type."