Save Me!! (Slow updates)

Hospital And Fear!!!

Chapter 10.....

        I woke up to Daisy licking my face I scrunch my nose up she whines and tugs at my sleeve, I groan. "Okay Okay I'm up I'm up" I sigh I get out of the bed, Daisy barks and jumps up on me I throw a jacket on and grab my phone, I snap the leash on Daisy, I walk quietly downstairs not wanting to wake Kate or Seth, I walk out the front door with Daisy and she pee's as soon as we get out there, I sit on the grass like I did last night, I take my phone out and download Temple Run and start to play it while Daisy runs, rolls, jumps around and does her business.

I looked up when I heard the front door shut and I saw Seth come out he smiles when he see's me he walks over to me and sits beside me, I put my phone back in my pocket. "So this is where you went, I heard the front door shut" He said I nodded, I had tried to be quiet guess that didn't work. "Yeah Daisy woke me up having to go to the bathroom" I said yawning , he nodded. "Still tired?" He asked with a amused smile. "Yeah, I didn't get much sleep last night" I said his amused smile disappeared and replaced with worry. "Why?" He asked concern laced his voice, I bit my lip and played with my fingers nervously. "Uh..Nightmares" I whisper softly, he wrapped his arms around me I flinched but hugged him back.

"Baby girl when you have nightmares you can come wake us like you woke Kate that one time, we won't be mad at you we want to comfort you" He said hugging me tightly I sigh. "But I don' want to seem as weak or a wimp" I whispered, he hugs me tighter then he pulls back a look of pain and worry in his eyes, I looked down at my lap but he lifts my chin to look at him with his first two fingers I flinched but don't pull away.

"You are not a wimp nor are you weak at all, you are one of the strongest girls I know Ana just because you cry and want comfort when you have nightmares or whatever  it may be, that doesn't make you weak it just shows that you've stayed strong for so long of a time, you are a strong girl Ana don't ever think that you are weak or let anyone tell you that you are weak" He said a few tears slip from my eyes I've never had anyone tell me that before or anything encouraging like that or nice like that I hug Seth tight and bury my face in his shirt, he wraps his arms around me.

"Thank you Seth, But how can you say that?, I can't even go a day without crying, I starve myself cause I can't stand to look at my body in the mirror cause I'm fat and ugly, and I..I cut" I said the tears flowing down my cheeks like little rivers, he hugged me tightly. "First off I can say that cause I love you, your my daughter Anna your not just the girl I so happened to adopt no your my daughter, and so what you cry but its only cause you've stayed strong for so long that you need to let it out, and don't say that your ugly cause your not and your not fat Ana I can tell just by glancing at you that your under weight, you are a beautiful girl Ana and don't think any different of yourself and if I ever hear anyone telling you that you are ugly or fat or anything like that, I will personally beat there butt for hurting my daughter" He said I started to cry harder, I wanted to believe him Oh I so  wanted to believe him so so bad, but I've been told for 10 years that I'm ugly, fat, worthless and so on so on, How could I believe him when he's telling me I'm beautiful??, when all my life I've been told that  I'm ugly??...

"And...That" He paused pointing to my wrist, talking about my cuts... "Is because you were hurt so much that you couldn't take it anymore and you resorted to self harming even though you know its bad to do and you could cut into a vain at any given moment and could die from it, but you do it cause you were hurt so much by people that was the only way you could release the pain you have inside of you" He said tears rolling down his cheeks he had so much emotion in his eyes from pain, worry, love hurt and sadness and the number one was understanding, I start to sob into his shirt soaking his T-shirt cause I've never had anyone care so much for me to actually take the time and put themselves in my shoes and think of why I do the things I do, I've never had anyone love me enough to care enough to talk to me about it like he just did, and I sob more with those thoughts.