Save Me!! (Slow updates)

Day with Ashton!!

                

                     Chapter 11..

Recap: I felt him start to roll my sleeve up my eyes widened No No no no oh no he'll see my cuts no no I thought panicked.                    "No don't do that" I exclaimed panic and alarm in my voice but it was already to late he had already rolled my sleeve up revealing all of my cuts,, I froze as he sat there staring at the cuts lining across my arm with wide and teary eyes..

         

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He sat there for a good while staring at the nasty cuts lining across my arm with teary filled eyes and horror in his eyes,  He looked up at me with a worried and sad expression I looked down ashamed of myself, What would he think of me now?, That I'm worthless?, Pathetic? , Not good enough to be his daughters adopted daughter?, I am worthless I'm not even good enough to be here much less for Kate or Seth.. How did he even know?, How? unless he sensed something how did he know?...

   "Y..You cut"He stated with shock, surprise and sadness in his voice, I looked up and was staring into a teary eyed man and I winced he won't ever think of me as anything but a worthless piece of trash now.                              "How did you know?" I asked avoiding looking into his eyes he sighs sadness leaked into it.                    "Cause I could see that there was something off about you, Your smiles were fake at least most of them are, and I could also tell by the way you kept tugging at your sleeves that there was something going on and I had to know what my granddaughter was hiding before I die" He said I blinked finally someone see's through it the fake, that this isn't the real me and on the inside I'm scratching to be let out of this dark hole, He and Seth are the only ones that have seen through this the only ones to take time to notice these things nobody else ever does..

  "Look Ana I don't know what you are going through, But I do know this it had to be pretty bad to cause you to cut yourself to hurt yourself, but I tell you this Seth is determined to fix you I can see it in his eyes and Kate loves you very very much  she wants what is best for you, Look Ana I know I can't possibly understand what you are going through and have been through but I love you and I want to be there for you,  even if we just met your my granddaughter" He said tears blurred my vision no one has ever said something so nice to me before, all my life I've been told I was worthless and Pathetic, that   I was nothing , I was hated, Abused and r...aped all my life half of my life I've never felt loved but I do now by Kate, Seth and now Joe too.                          ""Thank you your the only one besides Seth that has cared enough to notice" I whispered he smiles and releases my wrist taking ahold of my hand he coughs and I looked up worried to see his genuine worried face as he looks back at me.

   "Do they know?" He asked a tear trickled down my cheek as I take a deep breath shutting my eyes I felt so ashamed of myself even if he didn't think of me as worthless I could never escape my own thoughts.                  "Seth knows he caught me cutting myself yesterday and He and I are going to tell Kate sometime today" I said he nodded  and I desperately try to hold my tears back from bursting down my cheeks..                    "Ana I know its going to be hard to stop but with Kate and Seth's help I know you can do it" He said giving me a smile another tear leaked through my barrier and down my pale cheek, I looked at him wide eyed, How did he know I was trying to stop?,                "How did you know I'm trying to stop?" I asked him confused scrunching up my nose he gave me a sad smile.            "because I know things and you are showing signs of withdrawal and urges to cut,  Tugging at your sleeves, scratching your arms and digging your finger nails into the palm of your hand to feel something" he  said I was shocked that he knew all of that and he barely knows me heck he just met me but yet he knew I was having the withdrawals  from cutting myself, How in the world did he know?..