Save Me!! (Slow updates)

Trusting Seth and Cutting??

Chapter 9...

I looked up at Seth still very very tense, I just hope I don't regret doing this, but I guess giving him a chance won't be so bad, I hope at least..

I swallowed the lump in my throat and with a shaking voice began to speak.. "Why?, Why did you yell at me?" I asked shakily and quietly, he sighed running a hand through his hair. "I was worried about you, I didn't want you to starve yourself its just so unhealthy to do that, I was just worried I know that it didn't seem like it at the time but I'm weird I show my worry in different ways than other people would like yelling, anger, comfort, hugging even crying, Its one of my many flaws, but it was out of worry I didn't mean to scare you" He said I sighed.

"D-Do you hate me because I lied and tricked you?" I asked tensing up more, His eyes widened in shock as he shook his head frantically. "No No, baby girl I could never hate you I love you so so much" He said I bit my lip. "Are you mad?" I asked quietly. "When I first saw you do that yes I was, but no not anymore no, I feel so guilty for yelling at you and scaring you, I really do want to make it up to you" He said, I looked down to Daisy on my lap and pet her behind the ears.

"Did you leave because of me?" I softly whisper anticipating the answer, he shakes his head. "No baby girl, Kate and I thought thought that it would be good to give you sometime away from me" He said sadly a guilty expression on his face, I nodded, Now for the question I dread because I won't know for sure if he is lying or telling me the truth, I take a deep shaky breath...

"Will..you uh...hurt me?" I asked looking up at him with a fearful and nervous expression, his eyes widen and sadness fill up his eyes and he shakes his head frantically. "No No not at all, I will never ever hurt you in anyway, I will never lay a hand on you" He said honesty in his voice, I looked up and looked him straight in the eyes which made me  tense up a little at the action and I saw genuine, love, care, worry, concern, guilt and lastly hurt, I nodded I don't know if I believed him or not, I want to really I do but I can't bring myself to do so, I don't want to keep hurting him but I just don't know if I can trust him yet or not...

"Can we just put all this behind us?, please baby girl?" He asked with hopeful eyes, I sigh but I can't he looked so much like my dad when he was yelling at me and I just can't forget that. "I..I..I would Seth....but..when you were yelling at me yesterday..you..you just looked so much like someone..I once knew..and he wasn't a very nice person" I stuttered in fear and nerves, but then my eyes widen as I realized what I had told him...Shoot shoot shoot, Why did I just say that?, Why am I doing this he's going to hurt me and the best thing for me to do would be to shut him out and don't let him know anything about me, but for some darn reason I am opening up to him urg, I sigh as tears come to my eyes and I tensed up more.

"Who?, What did he do to you?" He asked Anger and sadness in his voice, I looked down to Daisy in my arms who was sleeping peacefully. "I don't want to talk about it" I whispered, he sighed but nodded. "Okay, I understand" He sadly said in understanding, It went silent for a while and we sat there in tense and awkward silence..till he broke it.

"Why don't we go eat?" He said I sigh, I can't eat I'll get fat, I'm already so fat I can't eat I'll get even more fat.

"I'm not hungry" I said he sighed running a hand through his hair. "Ana, please you need to eat, I know you are hungry" He said his eyes boring into my blue eyes, I looked away cause I knew he was right. "Baby girl, Can I tell you a story?" He asked I nodded hesitantly.

"Okay, One day Kate and I were watching the news 2 years ago, there was this story of a girl no older than you, She had been bullied at school and she starved herself because of it, she starved herself for 4 years and one day she collapsed in gym from malnutrition, she was taken to the hospital they tried to get food in her with a feeding tube but her body rejected all of the food cause she had been starving herself for 4 years so her body did not accept the food, they couldn't save her" He said sadly,tears brimmed the edges of my eyes, She died from starving herself, but that's not supposed to happen we eat just enough to stay alive, I don't want to die but I also don't want to get fat either.