trusting unknowns

chapter ten

Riley's POV

Luke held up on his side of the deal, he answered any question he could about my mom and I held up my part of the deal for the most part. I was just never raised to be a very open feelings person. I didn't tell him I don't sleep at night, I don't want to worry him more. It was almost a week later and now I had to go back to school, only we now lived too far to go back to my old one. So, here we sat at the kitchen table debating different options

" Well, do you like in-person school? We have a few online options you could do, and stay with us at the hospital every day. " Calum proposed

" I don't know, I kinda want to try online for a year and if it goes bad I can just switch," I asked

" Yeah, that sounds good! You can hang out with us every day." Luke smiled

Hopefully, that would help us get to know each other.

" Do you play any sports or something we could sign you up for?" Micheal asked

" I used to play soccer " I shrugged

" Soccer it is," Micheal said typing away at his laptop.

I smiled and stole some pretzels that Ashton was eating.

" Oh- by the way I got you this from the mall the other day," Luke said putting a small white box in front of me

" Oh my god. No, stop this is too much"

" You need a phone just take it" he laughed

" This is so expensive," I said in shock

" You deserve it" he said kissing the top of my head

" Thank you, I mean it"

A few days later

It was going to be a long day emotionally today, we were holding the funeral for my mother today. It was going to be small I wasn't exactly sure who was going to show up but we did not know many people, just a few work friends maybe she never talked about her family after all the times I had asked.

I put on my black dress, mascara, and my great-grandmothers necklace. Micheal came into my room to try to get me to talk, he was the certified therapist. I kept it general not getting into the deep emotional topics yet. Once everyone had gotten dressed with headed out the door. My family had never been overly religious so we just held a neutral ceremony. More people than I thought would come came, they told stories of my mom and sometimes of me to myself and the boys. It brought light into a side of her life that I never got to see, which made me happy. I wanted to escape the people for a bit and was now sitting in the bathroom.

I think I spent my capacity of sad feelings for a while, yes I missed my mom more than anything but I was just tired of being sad if that made any sense at all. So I just sat in silence listening to the elevator music they had playing randomly.

When I walked out of the bathroom the guys were putting some flowers into the car with the help of a few workers, they stopped when they saw me.

" You doing okay Riles?"

Luke was the founder of my new nickname, I had noticed they had been using for the past few days.

" It will get better. " I smiled