Indecisive, Ashton Irwin/Luke Hemmings Love Story

Chapter 31 -Yellow

My mind had suddenly become even more of a jumbled mess as I heard Luke's confession. He had actually done that so that Id be happy..

Holy fucking hell.

"What are you thinking?" My eyes snapped up to meet his, causing my throat to constrict. Every feeling and every moment I shared with him all seemed to come rushing right back as i stared at him. As I had predicted , all the hate and bitterness had faded into thin air after his confession.

"How could you possibly make that decision for me?" Out of all the questions I had that was the one that slipped out. How could he really make that decision for me though? For us.

Sighing he bit his lips before looking away and swallowing hard. "I went with my instincts. I honestly thought that you would've been happier with him than you would be with me. I didn't even realize that you would've done a long distance relationship..that was until you became his" his lips fell into a thin line and I couldn't help the sigh which escaped my lips.

"You should have i don't know? Fucking asked me? Yeah like a regular human being" glaring at me he shot out of his seat before pointing an accusing finger in my direction.

"You could've fucking asked me. How I felt? Did you ever stop to think that I was bloody in love with you?!" My mouth fell open in shock as he huffed before sitting down and tugging at his hair.

Love?

Blinking rapidly I tried to allow his words to sink in and let out a small whimper when his words finally registered.

"I love you okay." He stated, his eyes holding me prison as he did so. "I'm in love with you." Taking a deep breath I tried to stand up but failed considering my knees felt like jello.

"You don't have to acknowledge it. You can ignore it and simply forget about it because I know you don't feel the same way but I think you deserve to know how I feel." My mouth felt dry and I honestly did not know what to say. I was so confused..confusion was actually an understatement ..try borderline conflicted.

What was I meant to say to that? Do I love Luke? My mind immediately replayed every beautiful moment I've had with him however, I instantly shook my head of the thought. Im with Ashton..I can't afford to have these sort of thought especially when it's about..of all people, Luke.

"Can we um go now?" He asked, standing awkwardly in the middle of the door frame. My eyes met his and for the first time in months I felt it..

Once again I felt that spark I always had whenever I looked at Luke. With everything that was masking my adoration for him..I wasn't able to feel it. Considering I had well..built a high wall. However, now thar I knew what his intentions were for hurting me..the walls I had tried to desperately build came crashing down in the matter of seconds. Not weeks, days, hours or even minutes but seconds.

Standing up I grabbed my purse before meeting him half-way. However, just as I was about to tell him the one thing which was so desperately trying to claw its way out of my heart. ..Michael had interrupted me.
Thank God for the interruption because I don't think what I was about to say would've been anywhere near ideal.

Once we were in the car my mind suddenly drifted back to reality.

'Am I really going Christmas shopping with these two?'

Author's note:

Really short chapter and Abrupt ending sorry guys :( but you guys get the point of the chapter. If you're reading thank you so much I love you guys! Feel free to comment! 😘 x