Love Me 'Till the Day I Die [UNDER CONSTRUCTION]

Chapter 16 - You've Got It the Worst

On day one of the therapy, they began to tell me about what happened after I almost died. "I shook you. I tried to wake you up. I screamed your name and you wouldn't respond." Nash paused to hold back tears. "You were losing consciousness and I thought-

I knew that it was all over." He finished. What have I done to this family... What have I done to myself? "When you finally seemed.. Gone, we called the police. We were just yelling and screaming into the phone" My mom, Jennifer said and smiled slightly, covering up the pain. She was well aware that someone's life on the line was no laughing matter. So she looked me straight in the eyes and added, "We're just so lucky that you're here." And gave me a big, meaningful hug. I looked down and pressed my lips together. Deep in thought. What have I put my own family through? What have I done?

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Day two through four were similar, except it was mostly Nash who talked. He told me about how Addy and Kenzie turned on me and they both teamed up with Jordan, Aidan, and Bella to beat me up. "Addy and McKenzie split off to attack me, and I told you to run. I told you I'd be okay, and I was. they didn't beat me up as bad as I thought they would." Nash tells me. Ms. Holland is scribbling down notes vigilantly "I remember them beating me" I say in a low tone. "I'm sorry, I didnt catch that. Can you please repeat it?" Says Ms.Holland. "I remember them beating me." I raise my voice a little higher to let her hear me, but I don't make eye contact. "okay... And would you like to tell me what you remember from that?" She asks again.

In all honestly, I really would do better off not telling her, but that's not what she wanted to hear, so that's not what I'm gonna tell her. "Well, they started kicking me and then I just remember hitting the ground really hard". I pause to give her a second to write. 'Really hard' I think to myself again with emphasis. "I remember being punched too. And that's all I can remember." I tell her vaguely. Its hard to even talk about this whole situation, let alone have lived it.

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I walked through the door of room 14, still feeling a sense of fascination for the dull, yet too familiar room that I'm sent to every day. Im greeted by the usual surroundings; Ms. Holland, resting in a white leather office chair, Her notepad in hand and ready to take note of everything. The long couch that I usually sit on every day. And three other comfy chairs that Nash and my mothers get to relax in.

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Its day five of the therapy sessions, and I've been told that I'm making great progress and that I should be let out of the hospital by tomorrow. But I know they're just giving me the good stuff first. I know exactly what they're expecting to get from me today; a recap.

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We settle in our seats and the room is silent. The silence was supposed to be broken by me, but I wait. I know exactly what they were looking for; A recap. But I already know about everything they told me, and frankly, even though i lived it, i don't feel comfortable at all telling it again to the four people that I have been with all week. This is my day, and that's what I'm going to make it.

"Look," I start off anxiously "I know that you all are expecting a recap or something, but all these five days so far have been about you, and I wanna make this one about me." I announce. I pull Nash next to me. "What are you doing?" he whispers sharply. "Me and Nash aren't friends." I began. "we're in love." I'm going to regret this. More than I have ever regret any decision I have ever made in my life so far. " I'm straight." I let out. I hear a sigh of tension, and relief from Nash, but other than that, Silence. That's it. Guilty deafening silence. "We're going to let you... Take some time for yourself Maddi." Said Ms.Holland. And she escorted everyone out. Including Nash..

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Every single one of those memories I was told about over the last five days screamed out at me. They told me how weak I am. Now that I'm all caught up on what actually happened to me in detail, and I've realized how much of an impact it's had on Nash and my family, I'm not even sure how I actually lived through it.