The Boy With The Voice

Forgiveness

Hi guys, so I decided to continue writing this for now. Sorry it has been so long!

I wake up to find my alarm didn't go off. I sigh, rolling out of bed, having to quickly get up before I miss my bus. Recently I had ignored all my problems, which is bad I know, but facing the boy I love and the boy who likes me isn't easy after you hurt them.

Looking a mess, with sweat pants and a hoodie, I run out the door, and run to the stop. As I get closer, I see the bus start to pull away. 'Crap' I think to myself as I run trying to catch up with the bus.

As I run up, I look through the window to see Brandon sitting in the seat, with his head pressed against the window. I run trying to get the drivers attention, trying to ignore Brandon, when they finally come screeching to a stop.

Everyone looks up, confused. I walk on, thanking the annoyed driver, and walk to the only empty seat. I sit down, and glance to the seat next to me, to find Brandon. My heart stops for a second, this is not what I wanted to happen in the morning. I seem to keep staring, maybe out of fear, I don't know, but as I continue I see him glance over at me, and roll his eyes. My heart stings, but I know I deserve it.

I finally break away, and turn around, not daring to turn back. My hand grips tightly onto my bag, and I just wish I could get off this bus.

"You didn't do anything wrong ya know." I hear someone mutter. I turn around to see Brandon playing with his fingers, avoiding any eye contact.

"I just like you a lot, so I got mad. You are dating Kayden... and me being mad at you isn't right. It should be the other way around. I don't get it. How you haven't flipped on me yet. If I were you, I sure would have been way pissed at you." Brandon says, forcing out a small laugh. "I don't hate you, if that's what you think." He whispers.

"Thanks." I say, not being able to find the right words, unsure of what to say.

And with that, the bus pulls up to the school. We get off, not saying another word to each other. That was that.

I couldn't tell if I had received full forgiveness, but that didn't matter. I had to talk to Kayden. I had to show him how much he really meant to me. I just had to.

As I walk to Math, my first class of the day, I try to think of what I can do. I needed to go. As I enter the room, I realize I'm early, because no one has even come in yet. I sigh and place my bag on the ground and pull out my bright blue notebook, with the word MATH written in big bold letters.

I open to the back and start to doodle. I draw whatever comes to me. I start out by drawing hearts, but then go to drawing small sad faces. I couldn't stop thinking about him. Out of anger, I slam my pencil down on the desk.

I look up to see the teacher look up worriedly from her desk. I gulp, I hadn't even noticed her come in.

"Sorry." I say quietly. "I just... was reviewing some math but can't seem to get this one thing." I mutter, suddenly realizing that I excuse would only lead me to staying after school for help, when really I understood this perfectly.

She nods. "Why don't you stay after tomorrow? I can definitely help you out." She says happily. I really should have said something else. The bell rings and more kids come piling into the classroom. For the rest of class I try to think of ways to show Kayden how much I actually care about him.

I was going to, I couldn't lose someone like him.

The rest of the day went by as a blur. As I was let out of my final class, I quickly run to Kaydens house, which wasn't too far. I had no plan, no idea, nothing. I tried to think of one all day, but I couldn't. I decided to just see him and tell him how i felt. As i rushed, I realized he wouldn't be home for another few minutes. I sat on his front step waiting, looking up to see Kayden approach. He looked great, I mean he always did.

He stopped on the sidewalk and shook his head. I run up to him. "Kayden please listen, please don't run away." I say. He looks up with sad eyes. "I love you. I love you so much and I care about you. I would never cheat on you, ever. He was a friend who tried to get a little too close. My feelings were all over the place. I don't know what happened. But I know I love you and I need you. Please Kayden." I say quickly, on the verge of tears.

"Taylor... I'm dating someone new." He says quietly.

My heart stops for a second. What? I become really dizzy, and quickly sit down so I don't fall. Why was this happening?