Only One [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 11

A/N: Hey guys it's Ashley. Holy shit you guys are amazing. Em and I didn't receive any flame for this story and for that I am grateful. Anyways just a lil disclaimer for this chapter. Depressing. At least for me. I have a little warning below just in case also. Anyways May the odds be ever in your favor 5SOS Fam..GOODBYEE!!

WARNING PLASE READ!!!

If while reading this depressing chapter you feel triggered in any way to self harm, please discontinue reading chapter. I want you guys to be safe and healthy. If you feel insecure about anything about you or there are people saying things to/about you, ignore them. Everything about you is beautiful. You may think your fat or ugly or weird, but just ignore it. I feel these things also but I remind myself I am strong and I am beautiful. If you feel insecure about your sexuality, don't be. It is 2015. It doesn't matter if your different. We all fall in love and we can't help who we fall in love with. I love you guys. I hope you all love yourself.

Maddie POV

(Bold-Vanessa Italics-Maddie)

Maddie Mikey knows

Is the the text I received from Ness. Oh God. Which thing does he know about. I quickly texted her back.

Oh God Vanessa. Which thing does he know?

I only use her full name when it's something serious. This is one of those special occasions.

My dad.

How did he react?

He was supporting...

I sighed in relief but the text she sent after made my stomach drop.

I feel depressed again Maddie. I feel like its his funeral again. I'm numb and want to feel anything, especially pain. But I don't want to break the promise.

--------FLASHBACK--------

It was about a month after Ness's dad died but, the pain is still there. Dave was a second father to me. He fought a long hard battle in Afghanistan but eventually, all heroes have to fade away. I felt so much pain But it was nothing compared to what Ness was feeling. She seemed different lately. She was paler, definitely skinnier, and she lost the happy glimmer in her eyes. Vanessa had wrinkles slowly growing on her forehead from the stress. She was so depressed.

It wasn't until late night that I realized how bad it was. I was sleeping in my bed until I heard the sound of sirens outside. I put on my glasses and my Iron Man slippers and went towards my window to see what was happening. I saw the ambulance outside Vanessa's house and a stretcher being taken out. There I saw a man carrying a body. A small, spender, and frail body. My eyes widen when I see it was Vanessa in that man's arms. No it can't be.

I rushed out my house not caring to put on shoes or changing. I ran up to Vanessa and screamed when I saw it really was her. She looked at me and sent a weak smile. Her clothes and arms were bloody. Oh my God. She tried committing suicide. No...she can't! She's been clean for so long. I ran up to her, pushing throughout the arms of the people trying to stop me.

"Oh God Vanessa."

"Hi, M-Maddie. Let her come please? She's my best friend." She managed to croak out to the man. He slightly hesitated but nodded.

"Shh, Vanessa keep still and quiet. You don't want to lose your strength." I said with tears streaming down my face. The man placed her on the stretcher and the others put it in the truck. May, Alex, and I climbed into the truck after and May and I held onto one of Ness's hands. The man said to hold her still and try to calm her while they cleaned her wrists. They said she almost overdosed also.

"Oh dear lord Vanessa, why? You've been clean so long. You could've called me." As I finish Vanessa hisses and squeezes my hand as the antibacterial is rubbed on.

"I didn't want to disturb you." I frowned at her.

"You know I don't care about you disturbing me. I'm used to it. You can always call me when something comes up."

"I know. I just..." she winced as the man tightly bandaged her arm and moved to the other. "...I didn't want you to worry. I felt numb and thought it would be easier to just leave and be with him. I didn't think of you guys and I'm sorry." When she finished she looked ashamed and stressed.

"Just promise me you'll never do that again. Call me, text me, anything! Just don't EVER do that to me again."

"Okay. I promise."

--------END FLASHBACK--------

That's it. I'm coming over.

I rushed next door and barged into,Vanessa's room. She was sitting in the corner, curled into a ball. She looked like a porcelain doll, small and frail and innocent looking, yet so pale and scary at the same time.

"Oh man, Vanessa you're alright. You hear me? You're fine. Dad wouldn't want you to feel this way. Remember, in the letter he gave you before gel left? What did he say?"

She looked at me with nostalgia in her eyes."Don't be sad if I don't come back. I want you to live your life and be happy. Be kind to others but still keep that flare in your attitude. It defines you. And most of all, remember that I will always love you." Vanessa smiled at the memory. She then tackled me in a hug. "Thank you Maddie. What would I do without you?"

"Well without me, you'd be stressed, depressed, and 5SOS obsessed. But then again so am I. And every other girl and tangible in existence. That includes you." I'm serious for a moment until Ness and I burst into laughter. I just hope it stays this way and she'll stay clean.