Over You

Chapter 29

I press the doorbell on Lisa's house, I wait outside until someone open the door

"Good morning Ms. Park" Mrs. Joo greeted me.

"Is Lisa around?" I asked. I would have like to go to school with her.

"I'm sorry Ms. Park but Ma'am Lisa doesn't come home here anymore" I'm surprise about the information I received today.

"Is that so? thank you Mrs. Joo" I didn't want to asked anymore question about where she is because it's not my forte to interrogate someone's life, I went back to my house to inform my driver to send me to school. Out of the blue my curiosity hits me, If she's not coming home anymore, Where could she be? Maybe she lives with her parents now, but she dropped me at my house last night. Isn't it Weird.

I was in the middle of traffic when I saw a familiar figure outside the coffee shop, I stare at the woman who's like she's waiting for someone. I let down the window to call her but a man suddenly came to her, my eyes widen from the scenery I saw: the man claim her LIPS! And the fact she responded to it. What the hell!
I'm still looking at them, my eyes followed them when they stareted to walked until they didn't reach my sight.

I still cannot process of what I saw, I can't believe of what I witnessed, everything is just a dream right? If it is, I want to wake up, I pinch myself incase I'm just dreaming but everything is surreal. This is a nightmare. I wake up from my thought when my driver talked

"Ms. Anne are you okay?" he asked looking at the rear view mirror. And it was then I realized that my face was shed in tears. "do you still want to go to school, Ms?" I wipe my tears away and just nod to him.

I feel betrayed, I feel sold down the river, I feel cheated on, yet we're not together but urrrrrgghhhh! it doesn't make sense! I clenched my fist due of anger. I asked my driver to close the window between us so I could have a little privacy, after he close the window, I let my down my guard and cry out my lungs.

I'm at my locker to pick up my books, when someone covered my eyes in the middle of what I was doing. By just inhaling of the scent, I already know who it is, because it was one of my most favorite scent, yes it WAS, now I just don't wanna smell it specially near me.

"Guess who it is" the woman whispered, but I didn't bother to answer her. When she hadn't heard of me she uncovered my eyes. "is everything okay?" she asked. I just rolled my eyes even though she can't see it, I close my locker and walked away. She's persuasive and chased me, she grip my arm and that cause me to stop from walking. "hey, what's wrong" I face her and just gave her a cold stare. I saw how she gulp and I can see that she's worried. "what happened?" she asked worriedly and shove my hair lingering on my face.

"you happened. " I shortly reply and leave her dumbfounded. I heard her calling my name, so I quickened my pace so she could not catch up with me. I successfully entered the classroom without her catching me. I put my things on the table and sitted on my chair. My friends are not yet arrived. I get my phone inside my bag and and texted Lisa

To: Monkey🐒

"Can we talk later? I need you"

In a second I received a 2 text messages from different owner. 1 from Lisa and 1 from Suzy, I read Lisa's first.

From: Monkey🐒

"I'm in the school parking lot where are you? do you miss me? Haha"

To: Monkey🐒

"Not even in your wildest dream! Haha but talk to you later after class and I'm already at the room. Faster the teacher is here" I lied, the teacher is not yet here.

I read Suzy's message

From: Suzy👸

"you okay? You know I'm always here for you"

I didn't bother to reply her and put my phone inside my bag again.

The whole class is over and I feel I didn't learned anything from today's lesson. I'm too occupied of what I saw earlier and it seemed, it's tattooed in my mind.

"Hey chipmunk, wake up" I snapped  in my thoughts and looked blankly at Lisa. "what happened? You're too occupied" I'm still staring at her not knowing of what should I say. She immediately hug me when I realize I'm crying again. she pat my back.

"let's talked shall we?" I just nod and before we could walked out I asked Jennie unni if I can excuse myself from today's practice because I'm not feeling well. of course I lied, I mean I'm not really feeling well not because I'm sick but because of I have a heavy heart and I'm sure I can't pull off the practice today, It's a valid reason right? Of course right, And glady she's okay with it and she'll just tell coach about it.

Lisa and I went to my house to talked, actually she have her practice today but she said I'm more important and beside she already mastered the choreography, yet I felt thankful and guilty at the same time.

"what happened?" Lisa asked. I restrain myself from crying again so I clenched fist before I started to talked

"I saw her Lis, I saw her"

"You saw who?" she looked confuse.  So, I story about what I saw earlier,
Her eyes bulged in disbelief. Lisa knows everything about me and Suzy, and I know about her and her feelings towards Jennie. Lisa and I treat each other as bestfriend and I'm thankful that she came in to my life.

"are you sure about what you saw?" she asked as if she can't really believe it

"yes I'm sure about it, 100% I'm sure she's the one I saw. I-I love her Lis, I Love her. She said she love me back but why did she do this to me? I know where not yet together but why do I feel I cheated on? Does it even make sense?" I cannot hold my tears anymore so I let it out." I-I thought she l-love me Lis, b-because s-she said so. I-If her love is to be painful like this, then I don't want to receive her agonizing love" I said in between in my sobs.

"Look Chipmunk, it's easy to say that you love someone but you just can't justify that easily because she just say so." I looked at her confusingly for I haven't processed what she's trying to say.

"What's that even mean?" I asked. She heaved a deep sigh and smiled towards me before she spoke again.

"what I'm trying to say is that, you  can't just to put meaning into it because she just said she loves you. The measure of love is not based of what you hear, rather you can professed that she loves you if she shows and makes you feel wanted and important. Love is verb Chimpmunk. Love is an action." she was right, I can't just justify everything because of what I hear but it needs a concrete evidence to believe ones belief.

"but she is, she makes me feel wanted and important" it's true, Suzy makes me feel that way and I was deceive about it.

"if you feel she's sincere for making you feel love, maybe she did love you but the timing isn't right, and all the love in this world can't even alter timing" I hug Lisa tightly and she respond to it. now I want to apoligize to someone

"Can I have another favor to ask" I said

"no" she said.

"c'mon! I'm your bestfriend!" I exclaim and playfully hitting her arm

"Fine" she smile and rolled her eyes on me

"Help me to apoligize to Chu"

We planned on how Jisoo will forgive me, it took us 30 mins just by planning about it and honestly I'm nervous of the out come on it, I hope it will work and I hope she will forgive me and still accept me, but no matter what is the out come I will accept it, and it's my fault anyway.

Lisa bid her goodbye after because she needs to fetch Jennie honestly I'm confuse about them, one day they're okay and the following day they aren't and the following next day, they're okay.

Is love really that complicated? or we are the ones who really make it difficult?