REMEMBER (Michaeng)

Part 48 "Home"

MINA'S POV

Days passed after Ani was buried, I felt the total emptiness and sorrow of losing a beloved brother. Chaeyoung and my other friends are contacting me but I chose to ignore them for a while. It might sounds too selfish of me but I just want to be alone.

And about Bambam? Yes, he died too. Dad's people just wanted to caught him and be arrested, but he chose to end his life. I've heard that he stole a gun and shot himself. I know that he's a bad person but I didn't like the fact that he could just end his own life that easily without paying his sins. He killed my brother.

And also about that Vernon? He ended up in jail. Dr. Heechul insisted to arrest him quickly. I didn't expect that Dr. Heechul is that powerful in terms of life status. Imagine, he's a great surgeon, he's rich and humble too. Momo is so lucky to have him. Speaking of Momo, I already talked to her and apologize for what she'd been through because of me. Until now, I have this kind of guilt and I think it will never perish. Momo is such a treasure for me. Heechul's also helping her to cope up with the trauma she got. Until now, she's seeing a psychiatrist.

I went inside the house after having a few walk in the garden and saw my mom holding the picture of Ani.

"Mom..." I saw her, wiping her tears again.

"Yes, sweetie?" She looked at me and smiled as if nothing's happened.

"Ani will gonna be mad at you. You're here crying almost everyday." I said and caressed her hair.

"I'm okay, I just missed him."

"Me too. He's such a great a son and a brother." I smiled bitterly. Even me in the fact, it's still too hard to accept that he's gone. That we can't see him forever.

"Where's he?" I asked and return Ani's picture on our side table.

"As usual, locking himself in his office. Don't mind him sweetie. Do you want to eat something? I'll cook for you."

"No, mom. I don't have an appetite to eat. I'll just go to his office and maybe, talk to him." I said and my mom nods.

I walked upstairs and decided to go to his office. I'm preparing to knock but I'm still hesitating if I really want to talk to him. I'm still mad at my dad, but he's been locking himself these past few days. After all, he's still my father.

*Knock knock

"Can I come in?"

A minute passed, but no one's answering. I open the door and saw him sitting in front of his closed balcony. His place is full of cigarettes dust, liquor's bottles and etc. He's totally messed.

"Dad..."

"Why are you here? Leave me alone."

"As much as I wanted to leave, I can't. You're locking yourself here for how many days. You're not eating that much, you're just here drinking beers or wines, what are you even doing to yourself?" I said and placed my arms to my waist. He's such a stubborn old man.

"I'm giving you the freedom you want, Mina. You can go now." He timidly said.

"That's it dad? That's all you wanted to say? Dad, as much I wanted to hate you, because I really hate you, I just can't! You lost Ani. We lost him. But I'm also your child, Dad. I'm your daughter. I don't want this anger to outgrow more. That's why I'm talking to you. You still have a family to be taken care of. You still have us." I didn't notice the tears coming from my eyes. This should be out of anger, but it seems that it's a longing and asking for a father's love. I want him to suffer and regrets all the things he have done to me, but it seems so wrong. The mere silence ate us up until I heard some sobs.