Burden // LS STORY

Part 11.

For the next few days, Harry and I danced around each other like strangers. It was so strange, and complicated, the one person that I wanted to be the closest to in this place was the one I had to stay the furthest away from. I really didn't like it. But I just didn't know how to approach the situation yet.

I found myself dreaming of the night I spent with Harry, terrified that I would wake up with some evidence in the sheets or that I may have moaned his name at night, but Zayn hasn't said anything so I must be okay for now.

I met our other two roommates, Carter and Isaac, they don't really say much though, I only really ever see them before bed and first thing in the morning, we make pleasant exchanges when we cross paths, but it really isn't anything more than that.

Harry and Liam seem to be bonding, which sends my blood boiling, not because I am jealous, okay maybe slightly jealous, but Liam is a prick, and I don't know why Harry would want to associate himself with someone like that. I thought he had more morals.

I'm currently sat in chemistry class, lab practicals today and we are meant to be getting paired up by Mr Kingston, the professor, I both hoped and prayed that I wouldn't be paired up with Harry. Things were so tense, and we still didn't have the talk we promised, or maybe we did. Maybe me telling him that I didn't know what I was, was enough to send him in the opposite direction. But it was unfair, he never gave me the opportunity to think, and I also didn't know where he stood on the whole situation.
Why must everything always be so complicated?

Is it really that hard for Harry and me to just be together, why was admitting I liked a boy any different to me admitting I liked a girl?

I held my breath as I dove my hand into the bucket filled with names, we weren't meant to reveal our selections until everyone had chosen. I think I held my breath for the entirety of the selections. Mr Kingston had separated us into two groups, one half would select the names of the boys in the second group and that is how we would pair up.

"Okay lads, you can go and stand with your partner." Mr Kingston announced.

I quickly peered up to find Harry's eyes burning into me, I think he was just as nervous as I was about the outcome of this selection.

I peer down and slowly pull back my choice, just as I am about to reveal the name, I feel the slip of paper being pulled out of my hands and forced with another one. I look up to see Zayn's switched papers with me.

"Fucking hell, you take this one" Zayn quickly hissed at me.
I looked down to see Niall written on the card.

I glance up to Zayn who looks terrified. "What's wrong with Niall?" I ask him in concern.

"I don't want to be paired with the lad, what happens if he hits on me or something?" He says in overdramatic terrified tone.

I can't help but chuckle. "Fine" I agree.

He looks down to his paper and reads his choice. "Who'd you end up with then?" I mock thinking it would be terribly funny if he chose Nick.

He didn't answer me, he just walked in the direction of the other group.

"I guess we're paired up then" I hear the cheeky little accent as he wraps his arm around my shoulder.

I look at him and chuckle, "yeah I guess so" I tighten my arm around his waist and pull him in as we make our way for our desk right next to Nick and his partner, Kyle.

We separate all of our things and position them around the table, ready to start the experiment, Niall would be my partner for the entirety of the school year in Chem Practicals and that didn't faze me at all, I was silently grateful. Niall was a fantastic guy so I knew sharing this with him would be equally educational as it would entertaining.