Burden // LS STORY

Part 36.

The pain in his voice as he spoke was everything. And I believed every word he said just like I always do, but this time was different.

He admitted his faults, he explained where he was coming from and it was hard not to admire that about him.

I didn't want to fight with Harry, I really didn't.

I sat there and let all his words sink in. It took a lot to process, but my mind began to ease, my worries and insecurities eased with them.

I couldn't punish Harry for being confused.

"Do you remember what my biggest fear was Harry?" I ask him, as my mind wanders in another direction.

He simply holds his gaze on my eyes, my question not really needing a response.

"I told you it was you, that you were going to teach me things about myself that I thought I already knew. Things I didn't know if I was ready to accept." I recite the words I said to him in confinement.

A slight smirk slides across his face, remembering that night was also the night we shared our first proper kiss. He nods his head, letting the memories return to him.

"Have you learnt things about yourself now that you thought you already knew?" I breath out, reaching my hand out to take his.

He squeezes his hand in reflex against mine, our fingers sliding together effortlessly. "Louis, don't you understand? I knew nothing about me until you."

My heart flutters against my chest.

"I'm so sorry I hurt you Louis." He mumbles against my thoughts.

I shake my head and exhale deeply. "No, Harry you have nothing to be sorry for, I should have given you a chance to explain."

Daylight had welcomed a new day and I still hadn't had any sleep.

We were going to be heading up to Holmes Chappell today to see Katie.

I still needed to go. I needed Harry to finish things with her so we could continue, I think it was best for everyone that he did that.

But my approach to it had softened a little. I didn't feel the need to go in guns blazing claiming titles on my man. I wanted to give them the time together first, but I definitely wanted to meet her.

Harry would essentially be having to come out to her at the same time as stating their relationship had been a lie. It was going to be a hard conversation for anyone to have.

Harry drove my car as I took the time to have a little nap in the car.

It seemed like as soon as I blinked, we arrived in Harry's hometown at a local park he agreed to meet Katie at.

We had arrived a little early so Harry led me to a local coffee shop to grab some refreshments and essentially breakfast.

I was starting to feel slightly nervous about meeting Katie, I didn't really know what to expect, but Harry seemed to be at ease and confident in what he would say and that he knew it would go really well.

I don't think he understands what it would actually mean to lose him, he holds himself at such a low standard that he doesn't notice the impact he has in someone's life.

I sat in the car on the top of the hill as Harry went to meet her. From where I was sitting I would be able to see them.
I didn't know whether I should look away, analyse incredibly close and try and read their lips.
What was appropriate?

I sat nervously in the passenger seat, keeping an eye on all the entrances waiting for her arrival.

It wasn't long before a beautiful brunette walking down in a pair of blue skin tight jeans that hugged her beautifully straight legs and a white camisole top that showed off her beautiful figure. Her hair was hung loose around her face and waved through the wind as she skipped with urgency before Harry, running right up to him and wrapping her arms around him.